Y'ALL I NEED HELP

I donno how to put this thing into words like I have been facing BAD LUCK on a goal I'm working on. I don't believe in superstitions but you won't believe how much blockage I'm facing about the goal ( related to education ) . Sometimes things are turning upside down for me in a weird way that i can't even imagine. It's been 2 years , I'm having this seat backs.
Sometimes it's feel like someone has put a spell on me not to achieve my goal in any way. Ik life can feel overwhelming sometimes but in my case it's getting worse everyday. ╥﹏╥