Do you guys ever feel like you're faking your sexuality...

I like women and I've kissed women before, I identify as bi because I like to read femdom and bls, however in real life I can never imagine myself being comfortable enough with a man that I'm in a relationship with him. In fiction I don't enjoy reading gls as much as bls, with very few exceptions of course (I kind of feel like that's because girls drawn in mangas and manhwas sometimes just look...too fake..? I don't know but they look like children to me when they're supposed to look like adults I'm sorry )
Oh but there are some gls I very much enjoy, wayy more than any kind of stories
The point is....my preferences are so different I don't know what I am, and it makes me feel like I'm not bi, straight or lesbian I even thought I was asexual or pan but I really don't know and I'm so lost