I feel like Jinjoo had this idea in her head that love is all a person needs to live a happy and fulfilled life & it seems that for while now Jinjoo has regretted her life choices,being loved & taken care of by someone hasn't brought the happiness Jinjoo thought she would feel but instead she totally submitted to someone else's will & life just passed her by,meeting Doyeon is bitter for Jinjoo though...Doyeon reminds Jinjoo of how she could have been if she didn't run off & get married,she could have gone to university and such,had friends etc but she choose love instead of living her own life by her own will.
Honestly i feel like Jinjoo will become a nun and give up the husband,Doyeon and sex and choose to live her life alone while Doyeon explores her sexual/ romantic identity and start dating women,i feel like Jinjoo may only be able to heal when she decides to be alone and sort her mind & heart out.
In my opinion....this story is just still way too vague....the flashbacks and back stories are coming too darn slow...
That fucking shirt...girl why did you take that fucking shirt Jinjoo,you know your husband knows what clothes you own and now dude might know that Doyeon was having sex with a woman,maybe he thinks it's the tv but someday and maybe soon dude will realize that you're avoiding sex with him but off and on he will be hearing sex noises coming from Doyeon's place and each time you will be hanging out with a friend and then coming back when the sex noise ends
This story reminds me a lot of the lesbian movie BOUND....
I guess Doyeon's short haired friend will have to pretend to be her girlfriend ,Jinjoo's husband must have been a bore in bed,ppl who think penetration during sex is the be all and end all but the clitoral stimulation and oral sex on a woman make her loose her darn mind...just like Jinjoo found out today
Now i see why the husband is crazy ...Jinjoo's made him loose her darn mind until he's obsessed with her,Jinjoo was the intelligent hot girl that her school mates admired from afar and like what they saw and so the husband got a taste of a woman who was out of his league and lost his darn mind and lives his life in service of her though failing he's not leaving her or giving up.
I bet the husband accepts that Jinjoo sleeps with Doyeon as long as she don't end the marriage...butttt....Doyeon i bet will make Jinjoo choose and she will choose Doyeon and the husband will pay the thugs to kill Doyeon.
Well shit....Doyeon gonna fail her classes ....Jinjoo that thing you got between your thighs is working reallll gooddddd ,Doyeon done lost her darn mind ...jinjoo's reallll gooddd ...what the heck ahhh
The husband is not abusing her.....he is secretive YES but it's more emotional blackmail,he treats her respectfully but she doesn't know who he really is,Jinjoo may feel like her husband tries to hard for them and always finds a way to take care of everything and the fact that he is all she thinks she has in this world and so it's why she thinks she can't leave or hurt him by leaving him and choosing a good life with Doyeon while he suffers..
I wonder if the husband is just a gambler is why he always borrows money and actually works for those idiots and Jinjoo is just a conviniant to him
Why do I get the feeling that the husband actually works for those goons...
I feel like Jinjoo wasn't actually abused my the husband but actually treated well,I bet dude did all he could to give Jinjoo a good life and he's still trying to even now but it's like Jinjoo left home because of the fact that her parents may have not shown her or each other love and she couldn't deal with that anymore and so the first guy who showed her love & affection she ran with it and left her home...but getting along well with a person and your actual sexuality are separate things and who knows maybe Jinjoo and her husband didn't have sex regularly in the first place is the reason why she couldn't get wet as she aged and not because of menopause because she does have a high sex drive and get really wet when she has sex with Doyeon.
Jinjoo just has to figure out what and who she wants and accept the fact that she didn't know who she really was when she left with dude and accept that even though dude tried his best the life she spent with him wasn't the right fit for her and get a divorce so she can have some clarity on who Jinjoo is away from him,so she can really see if she still desires Doyeon as a single woman or if what she's doing with Doyeon is just a fling or a passing stage in her life..
I feel like a huge part of this story depicts that a woman can realize her true sexuality in her forties because many women who live as straight women with boyfriends or a husband but for some reason having sex with them is of a low desire and they might just believe that they got a low sexual libido but then realize after having sex with a woman that their sex drive is actually higher than they thought,it's like realizing which gender makes you want to have sex and which gender makes you desire sex less kind of thing..
I feel like that teacher knows things about Jinjoo from highschool days...i mean why would she bait her like that and i also think that Jinjoo only learned about life through her husband and hasn't really experienced much and she is now realizing that maybe she is bisexual and the things with Doyeon is more that just fu*king....
I feel like Jinjoo thought she knew what love was when she met and married her husband but her idea of love made her waste her life away being kept in a house and not living her life apart from marriage....and she finally knew what freedom of youth felt like because of Doyeon which is a part of her life that past her by because she got married young and became a housewife for many years...
Man oh man i feel sorry for Doyeon,to live your whole life not being someone's first choice but always a replacement /stand in for the absence of a person and because of that the person who you are standing in for is loved while Doyeon never gets the love but loves the person who put her in that position....I feel like in Doyeon's mind that it makes no sense loving anyone because they never love her back and so it's why she acts as if she doesn't feel hurt when someone hurts her and tries to make sure the other person's feelings don't get hurt by her.
I feel like Doyeon now thinks that love is a useless fantasy that she needs to let go of...
So it's like blue hair decided that all she holds dear to her or important comes to nothing in the end and so it's why she doesn't even take good care of herself presently,blue hair must feel like if she dares to care about something or someone they will leave or she she loose everything again & again so it's why she accepts to just have sex with pink hair and agree to her terms of not dating
And so blue hair feels safer emotionally.
As for brown hair,well blue hair gets emotional support from her which is why she always comes back to her when brown feels blue pissed her off,blue is afraid to loose brown more than pink and pink sees brown has a greater hold on blue's heart than pink does.
Home girl from her high school wasn't a true friend because she didn't even visit blue at hospital or talked to her about the rumors but made it worse behind blue's back so blue in present won't trust anyone and always have a fear of being hurt and left so in conclusion...blue is just doing what ever feels good and forget about romance because to her it all don't even last anyways.