FuckedMyWayUpToTheTop

The Kevin Home Alone t-shirt as he's about to be sexually assaulted as a child... I come back again and again to reread this, I get chills.

64 chapters in, I'm mostly disappointed and annoyed by this more than anything. The ML here is the typical alpha whose lack of respect for boundaries as well as consent is played up for the funsies (and it's so on the nose with his quotes even, like how strong nos mean a strong yes, body reactions are more important than words, how he admits to doing whatever he wants anyways, etc.etc.) , that it's kinda hot, and is accepted as a mild annoyance by the story and its portrayal, seen as just who he is by the MC. It's even a bit horrifying of a story considering the unconsensual creampies (the MC explicitly said he hates it when anyone cums in him, which the ML violated multiple times; the ML could've taken more rut suppressors and could've prevented them from meeting as to not violate that boundary as its a possibility in a rut, so he's super irresponsible and just let this happen because of his lust for the MC), that led to a pregnancy that was forced onto the MC as he otherwise would've had to risk losing his fertility (which, itself as a concern reminds me of the scare tactic used against women who want to abort). The MC had no choice basically, apart from the story trying to make it about the MC feeling attached to the baby. (He had to cope somehow, knowing it would've been a risky abortion). Their whole dynamic feels off to me, and I know the author tried to create an MC who's a tough shell with a soft spot for the ML and an ML who's very forward going with his feelings and sexual energy, but really, it comes off as the MC enduring boundary violations by the ML (the author conveniently lets those happen as the MC is written as a cute contrarian with thick walls who doesn't always mean what he says, but in crucial moments, he DID in fact, mean no as no) whilst accepting that because the ML has a hot face and he conceptualizes that as his personality more so than a behavior problem, it's all fine and actually, sex just happens to the MC, inflicted by the ML. I didn't see super enthusiastic , reciprocal sex. (the art style didn't help either ngl).

Then as of now, we haven't explored much of a background story between the ML and the MC, despite some flashbacks that could've given us more insight apart from them feeling just sexually attracted to each other. I think this would've created more depth to their relations right now. They had threesomes together and knew each other since childhood, their connection falls a bit short and those are tiny puzzle pieces of information that don't make a lot of sense without further exploration.

The MC is a cool character and I rooted for him (he's the only reason I gave this an additional star, so 2/5 in total). I like how buff he is, his fiery personality, his defiance and loud mouth, and at the same time, I wish we would've seen more of an exploration of his struggles as a non omega presenting man who is actually one, and who has gone through pheromone suppression. What this could've done to his secondary gender identity, how the fact a dominant alpha is into him despite the MC being the top in previous relationships could've been reality defying to him. Very shallow story, with lots of left out potential and lots of omegaverse slop tropes and behaviors. A shame, I wanted a cool, buff omega who fucks up a cocky, dominant alpha. We just got... A kinda plot-, kinda character- forced mpreg marriage story without even the good, juicy mpreg part.