Let me get this straight: the first chapter took place in 2019, and Heejae was born in 1978, so that would make him 41 and Garam 18/19 at the time no? I’m assuming Heejae is 44 and Garam is 21/22 now.
After 200 chapters, you can’t blame me for forgetting these little details.
Im so glad he was with youngjo(?) first and their relationship didnt start until 100+ chapters in, honestly
ya ya, there was a panel where professor said he's already in 40's
Yeah, but tbh, I’m more curious about Garam’s age. Someone in the comments said he’s probably around 25 in the current timeline (it's 2022/2023 if I'm not mistaken) but idk If he went to university right after graduating high school, he’s definitely younger than that
im pretty sure heejae is ~40 (i think he says so in one chapter) and garam is ~23. i got garam's age from bdk's blog talking abt the time skip. also in sk they do mandatory military service so i just assume garam did it before coming to gaeum hence being 20 when he goes to college.
Thank you! Heejae was born on February 13th 1978, so he was most likely 41 when the story started, which makes their age gap roughly 21 years.
thank youu!! just realized how anxious their age gap makes me i need heejae to work it out with garam like yesterday
He needs to work on himself fr because the fact that the younger partner, who is also his student, is the bigger person, the one who endures the most in this relationship is honestly humiliating for him
No, but I have to agree with Heejae on this, Garam really does get prettier i think its the hairstyle
In the end, Heejae remains the main and biggest antagonist look at everyone else ending up all warm slowly walking toward the light while hes still the same old evil hag (but in love) hshshsh
I feel like the fact that heejae didnt cry when he was born might have something to do with the way hes moving maybe the lack of oxygen caused some permanent brain damage which is why he is the way he is lmfao
Anyway, did Compton dream of Heejae hugging him and saying those words, or did Garam do that to comfort the miserable drunk dude?
it was garam hugging him and saying those words in place of heejae to comfort compton cuz he’s a saint
Literally fixing everyone in this story with his kind soul
Garam should just go study psychology and get a psychologist’s license or something, idk
If Im not mistaken, didnt Heejae dream of that moment where he stabbed Compton in the rain and scarred him for life in chapter 151 (maybe)? I wonder if he felt even a tiny bit bad about it, or if he just sees that memory as a hassle.
yes it was at the beginning of chapter 152
(only for heejae to be woken up by garam being super horny and sucking his dick….)
the night before they were having sex but heejae got distracted by compton offering garam the job in london and dealing with the contract negotiations
I’m afraid to say that for now, I think he only contemplates or shreds a thought of others based on how little or less Garam thinks of them? Does that make any sense? I know it’s terrible out there but that man has a very classic case of amnesia (abuser never remembers their wrong doings) and his philosophy of navigating in life is to never look back at the past and keep music as your central point. I just think he presumes Compton has moving on by now, indicating by he is a very successful conductor. He maybe feel a tiny bit of pity/ acceptance during that incident but as the years go by, it’s not a top of his concern anymore. He looks back and just treat it as part of the process of refining gems T_T
It actually made perfect sense! Anyway after 205, do you think Heejae will completely become ‘human’? I feel like there’ll be attempts, but it’s definitely not going to be a 180°, and Garam will be okay with that. It’s hard to change when being THAT has basically been your default setting for almost half a century.
I think heejae was more worried about garam than feeling guilty about what he did to compton. Heejae thought that compton would either take it out on garam/sabotage garam's career or convince garam to leave his side.
Heejae got himself a kind lit young horny lover he highey does not deserve all that smh
As a human being, the only good quality he has is that he cares about Garam huh Literally no redeeming qualities whatsoever shhshs
Gosh the way I have so many emotions after reading 205. I am literally hyperventilating in bed
Gosh the way I have so many emotions after reading 205. I am literally hyperventilating in bed
+in bed
Can someone give me a summary of Chapter 205? Mine got stuck when she started talking about Orpheus, on that bird panel. I was suddenly reminded of why I can’t stand Le/z/hin my connection is just too slow nobody got time for that lmao
Also, I love how she knows that whatever issue they had, Heejae must be the one at fault, shes aware that maestro is a walking problem exactlyy
Spoiler(since I understand Korean, I will explain what happened clearly!
I'm going around saying this chapter because I loved it so much!)
So, after 204, Garam stopped talking to HJ (silent treatment), they met with that woman (HJ's teacher). Garam talked with her, and she kind of guessed that hj did something and that they had a fight- yet she said, "I don't see hatred on your face but sadness and disappointment. You still believe in him, dont you?" and that hj changed a lot, Garam confessed to her that even though HJ changed a lot, he still wanted more than that. it went on, and they went for a walk where the teacher asked HJ if he knew about Orpheus and why he lost Eurydice once again. Hj said "yeah, because he didnt listen and looked back" to which she said "why do you think he did that, when he loved so much so to step on hell for her- just bcz he broke that one promise, he lost here- why do you think so- it wasnt hard to not look back to save her, rather- it was easy to give in to the urge of looking back. It means it's much harder to go against oneself than to love someone- so, HJ- if your feelings are truly sincere, you must try harder. Even if you are a blade, to change yourself -just stopping/dulling it isnt enough," to which Heejae said, "I'll have to break the blade". it went on concert day- Han was still giving him the silent treatment; finally, during his performance, HJ (ofc) gave his best performance. His monologues were: -"What did I do that was so wrong? To make you defy me? I've lived like this my entire life.
You know what kind of person I am, don't you? So was what I did really something worth getting this angry over? Words can be dressed up however you like. Whether they're lies or sincere.
But music isn't like that. Because it contains the soul. And you're a musician—you can feel it, can't you?! You can read my soul in my music. You can understand me without me explaining anything! That's why you stayed by my side. That was enough for you.
So why, all of a sudden, do you want me to become human?"
Right after the performance ended, hj didn't stop- he played Chopin Ballad 4, while his knife was finally stripping away- the same one which cut Garam. He was going against himself bcz, he doesn't want to lose his Eurydice.
THANK YOU!!!!
You’re a lifesaver, thank you so much!
Finally, I am always curious on what is the title's correlation to the story and finally I'm glad it got brought up to the narrative, oh my god this story is so fascinating and enticing, for me this is truly BDK's magnum opus!
No, but I did not expect silent treatment to be what pushed Heejae to strip the knife and try to be ‘human.’ There was that talk with his teacher, sure, but the fact that the silent treatment shook him to his core is kind of hilarious
Tysm for taking your time to explain it to us this was so so beautiful. I'm feeling both bittersweet but also relieved that Eurydice is and always has been Garam for this story and Heejae and not the manager
Garam refused to be on the same bed as him lol Serves him right
omg it was Heejae that admitted the “break the knife” part?!! I’m so happy!! When I was reading the raws I thought it was the teacher who said that so I didn’t feel the admittance coming from him
Unfortunately, Compton and I are on the same page like just a few days ago, i commented here wondering if Heejae would still ‘love’ him or eventually lose interest in him if he ever broke his hands and couldn’t play piano anymore.
Anyway, Garam was basically the nonchalant monkey meme in this chapter, while Compton was the furious tiger lmaoo. After all those coke rants, his reaction was just to stroke and pat the poor guy back. Oh, these crazies really do not deserve you, modern prophet
dude youre so fuckin right about the monkey/lion meme lmfaoo
love how everyone has a backstory that justifies their resentment and explains their craziness, while Heejae was just born crazy like that
Heejae is a savant, they be like that.
Literally bro has no excuse
Some people here are mourning over Garam changing, but I’m here happy because he finally stood up for himself. Like he said, what Compton did was disrespectful to music, mixing his personal issues into a public performance like that but of course, he starts shaking like the pathetic shrimp that he is when Garam calls him out publicly too. Like I said before, Compton is weak as hell.
Next step is for Garam to stand up for himself against Heejae too. Don’t let that knife hurt you my son.
I personally don’t think changing or becoming colder is necessarily a bad thing. I hope he’ll become the brand new Garam, older and wiser, who is kindhearted but also knows where to draw the lines, stands up for himself, and bold enough to turn his back and let things go
Completely agree with you on every point
I feel like Heejae’s manager (and the readers) are kinda expecting Garam to eventually become a jaded, ice cold soul like all of Heejaes victims, but I see this as his journey of growth. He can’t stay as heejae's slightly out of the place naive boy with sparkly eyes from South Korea forever. He needs to change too, especially with all these crazies around him lmfaoo. So yeah, he does change, and that’s not necessarily a bad thing.
nah mate, garam doesn't change at all. He didn't become cold in this chapter (unlike what the manager thought), he just defended the thing he loves the most from being disrespected. He still holds a soft spot for all. A pure soul like him can't change.
This is where I’m spreading my Garam cold agenda because that man is soft but also very hard headed in some cases. He loves you but won’t put up with your bullshit thou. That’s how he tamed the professor lol. Anw I am excited for the next arc where he would make Heejae to come to his senses very soon. Hopefully a long arc, like I want at least 20-30 chapters of Heejae being on his damn knees, repent for what he’s done to Garam & others student.
Yeah, your Youngjo comment made me realize that I might’ve forgotten some stuff and kinda rewritten Garam in my head. I personally want to see him cut Heejae off at some point. Heejae keeps talking about knives, so I kinda need Garam to pull a Heejae and become the knife himself.
Yesss that’s what I’m saying. Imagine we have that arc where Garam becomes the knife and pull an uno reverse on Heejae. Thinking about the potential illustration makes me foam at the mouth. You remember when Heejae was like what have i done to create this monster when Garam almost addicted to the rough/ violent sex. Don't be surprised professor, your short comings will come very soon in the shape of Garam *insert evil laugh*
Yeah, I remember that part lol. Im excited to watch Garam evolve like a Pokémon throughout the series. So much potential, one day he might overwrite Heejae’s trauma surrounding his ex-manager and become the one who haunts him for the rest of his life lmao
No nooooo…. don’t mention the ex manager. I fear Heejae hasn’t completed solved that part yet….it might come back one day idk… I’m scared seeing Garam being hurted lmfaooo. That boy has enough on his plates already
I was annoyed whenever Eva implied that Garam is kinda similar to the ex-manager like noo stfu. If we ever get to that Heejae-ex-manager arc and Garam starts feeling like a low-key substitute, then we have to put Heejae down idk
I find it hilarious that Heejae is well aware that he is a knife that hurts others, but not aware of when or how he does it.
Now that we’re about to enter Heejae’s redemption “becoming human” arc, I bet we’re going to dive into Heejae’s history with his ex-manager even more.
Ngl, I do find it disturbing that Garam is so similar to the manager, even though we haven’t clearly seen his face yet. Even Eva mentioned this before, so I believe this information will play a big role in the future. Like, after Garam’s insecurities about Heejae mainly caring about his sound, instead of him as a person imagine if he ever found out that he was similar to Heejae’s sorta-kinda ex, It’s giving replacement, It’s giving insincere lmfao.
Like in Chapter 105, he saw the manager in Garam, completely lost his mind, and ended up getting a blowjob. I need Garam to learn about the manager. I wonder if he’ll be in his saint mature bigger person mode or spiral into insecurity.
Imagine if Garam left him with a similar piece of paper like the manager did. With how down horrendously bad Heejae is right now, he’d probably end up in an asylum and and would completely destroy this whole ‘becoming human’ thing
Unlikely. I recall the author writing that he doesn't look like a manager at all—and she herself doesn't yet know exactly what a manager looks like (physically).
This is actually borne out by the fact that Kim simply doesn't remember his face anymore.
Besides, Eva is often mistaken in her judgments, so I don't think she can be trusted on this matter. I suspect the author will likely frame this as a source of trauma for the professor—assuming they elaborate on it further—since recent events show that those associations have already faded for him.Rather than as a drama about him being "merely a replacement."