I was gonna go on a rant but I don’t feel like doing that rn. But I genuinely feel like I have to make a hole in my skin to vent out the pressure in my body. I won’t harm myself because I don’t feel like doing that but if I genuinely don’t get an outlet then I will literally pop
Update: ouch owww my stomach hurts I need ten hours worth of ...... 1 reply
FUCKKKKK one of my ibispaint files got damaged and now i have to wait 2 years for it to restore (i had 116 hours on it because i used the same canvas for multiple drawings ughhhhh) 1 reply
I now have grown a new appreciation for this world and the beauty that it holds. Just saw some beautiful scenery and now I feel genuinely grateful for all that I’ve experienced in my shit life (my life isn’t that bad, I just hate myself) going outside is great. reply
Off course into you would taste like a melon soda and a red bean mochi, the 11th school trip would taste like a deep, velvety tea with some kind of roasted pastry. Harinezumi to contrast would taste like a cheap themed cafe soufflé pancake with berries reply
More of a rant but everything in my life brings me no joy and all I can do is sit and think about how I’d only be happy if I never existed in the first place. I don’t overly hate myself or feel the urge to kill myself but I just don’t care about anything anymore. Tbh my plan for life was to do what I’ve been told to and if it lands me somewhere bad I’d just end it there. All my family does is anger me, my friends all annoy me more and more, I’m scared of each day that’ll come to pass, I don’t want to be seen as nothing but i also don’t want to be acknowledged. Maybe doing something crazy before I die would be fitting, like exploding a gum factory causing some big accident, so I at least have some sort of acknowledgment after dead (jk I’d never do something illegal-well besides manga pirating)
This is more of a question for people who have been in long term relationships, but how do yall not get tired of them? Ik partners take breaks from each other sometimes, but I genuinely can’t see myself liking someone enough to be with them for over a year. It’s not that I’ve never had a crush before, but anyone I liked became boring and I usually ended up disliking them once I got over my crush (they weren’t assholes I just didn’t like them) does your love for your partner stay the same over time or do you see them as more of a friend in a non-romantic sense?
