Hidoku Shinaide
Sigh. Where do I even begin with this one. I read this for the first time years back, it was one of my starter yaois and lemme just say, not the best start! It starts off absolutely horrendously and while the seme has a very good redemption arc, he just, does so much shit....like I cannot fully see this man in a good light cause all I ever see in him is the awful teenager he was and how much he used the uke only for them to have a plot where the uke finally snaps at him and somehow, the uke comes running back to HIM. It's extremely infuriating and if I gotta skip several chapters to get to where the semes not raping him, it's not a very good story. I tried to come back years later to see if reading the earlier chapters could help me see it in a different light but the early volumes version of the seme makes me sick.
Checkmate(TAN)
Honestly, this one was a hard one to get started on. The progression of the MC and ML was hard to watch and I hated them at first...but they grew on me. The start of this is ROUGH and some really won't be able to handle it, but the end I got honestly made getting through their toxic asses worth it. I wish there were more side stories but I'm really content with how this ended.
XXX Allergy