I cant help but be fascinated with how differently he thinks and his own bizarre set of morals. He isn’t able to empathize the way others naturally do, he is stuck trying to use his own warped logic as a compass.
He truly thinks that he is a good person.
(KISS ME IF YOU CAN SPOILERS)
Like when he lied to his brother chase about the animal SA, he did it because he didn’t want his brother to die overdosing on meds to avoid intimacy. It was the “logical” thing to do. He doesn’t have the empathetic or emotional capacity to understand how traumatizing that would be, or that he could have tried to help in another way.
Even now, he is abiding by his moral compass and not interrupting a parents punishment, but trying to alleviate the pain of the punishment by adding companionship. As being alone in the dark is the worst part of this kind of punishment for a kid.
He is so fascinating to me…
Psychologically, so interesting and the deep dive in both brothers psyches is so sad and macabre. They are so fucked up but it’s like the only ones who lovingly understand them are each-other.
I wish I could’ve liked Roku and Yu more but unfortunately author dropped the ball with them. We don’t learn anything about Yu and he is just a scarecrow partner for the interesting Roku. Yu is just weirdly obsessed with Yu and there is never a strong foundation for the love between them besides a shallow infatuation. They never actually really talk about themselves or have deep conversations besides Yu’s pep talks.
I will say I quite enjoyed Roku ending up being the top! A pleasant surprise and sadly the only exciting part of their story, for me.
Anyways, peak twisted BL
Ive read this so many times. Kumota Haruko as always gives amazing stories but this is my favorite. I dont know what it is. I just love the main couple with all my heart. They were both rejects, and somehow made their own messed up yet happy life together. Their trust in each other, their history, their love throughput the years.. its top tier. The lows they had always makes me tear up.
Probably read this for the first time 10 years ago?? Good god??? But i love it with all my heart. Love you, Shinjuku Lucky Hole.











This is my favorite BL of all time. Its perfect. I wish there was more..