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So I'm in a situationship with somebody. I like them like ik I'm into them in a romantic way but I know to myself I cannot commit to this relationship. I have a lot issues with myself, mostly because I'm in a point of my life I just hate myself. I don't want this person that I like to waste their time on me.

And I'm stuck because there's a lot of moments I retract to myself, and literally don't talk to anyone during my episodes. There's times where I just disappear for days without warning, friends, families, anyone. In this case I end up ghosting them and I feel like such a fucking asshole. It should've been an easy fix but during those times I just cannot talk to people at all.

I told them about all this and it's an asshole move for me— but I tried to cut them off my life. They're such a fucking amazing person y'all I fucking kid you not. Understanding to a point they don't blame me for my bullshit disappearances. Also they went along with my demand to see for 6 months if we're gonna work out before we get into a relationship. And they're so fucking patient with me, so calm and attentive. Affectionate as hell, they made me feel like I'm the only one for them. I like them a whole lot. I like them so much I literally cannot let them be with me because I fucking SUCK.

They asked me one time if I wanted to just stop the fuckass situationship we have, cuz I kept on worrying and secretly hoping that they'd just leave me and find another girl so I can be back to being alone. I'm mfucking torn I don't want to lose them but I don't want them to end up with me. They didn't want me to say yes, but they'd do it if I told em to fuck off and I ended up just liking them more.

I SWEAR TO GOD I'M MY WORST OPP. My feelings hasn't changed about liking them and wanting to run away bc ik I'm going to end up ruining this good thing. What the fuck do I do.

Y'all I feel like— just like the art community we're just so shit now yk. We've gone to shits. It's all hating and ragebaits.

The dispute that comes from people just because you've read a bad story is fucking crazy. Like YEAH? It's shit content, it's a psychological horror and abuse wrapped in a romance package, we can all agree on that. Some people find that entertaining because they want violence, drama, and romance at the same time. It's like WATCHING BAD DARK ROMANCE MOVIES OKAY OR A SHIT SHOW OF A SERIES. But why are we calling each other goddamn names??? Have they done a crime to deserve that? When did "fujoshi" become a slur??

This site was literally flooded by fujoshis before we goddamn colonized it. Whatever you call yourself, bl reader/gl reader or whatnot. Reading the old questions here are so vastly different from everyone tearing each other down rn. They literally had a community that's just good vibes.

There's always like a question posted every week here, of someone talking down on fujoshis. PARTICULARLY ONLY GIRLS?? Dawg LET THEM FUCKING ENJOY THEMSELVES. They're not hurting anybody— more so, it's worrying when they enjoy toxic romance stories because that just means they're gullible and susceptible to abuse. Seriously who the fuck are you to act like you're above people in this fuckass site. You're also reading for free here, we all reading the same shit of two guys or girls fucking. WE GOON HERE.

Have a bit of shame. Putting a goddamn class system on reading bl. SHAME. I know some people deserve the hate but SHAME on you if you talk down to women just because they liked a BL version of "50 shades of grey" or sm. SHAME ON YOU for hating a woman fantasizing when there's literally millions of MEN who fetishize literally anything and act on their shitty desires.

SHAME ON YOU. SHAME. SHAME. SHAME.

Yk what I love both couples. Tho they're both entirely different tropes— MoTian being an enemies to lovers. While ZhanYi is childhood friends to lovers.

But what do they fucking mean when people say that Jian Yi and Zhan Zheng Xi are not romantic towards each other???? Especially that Zhan Xi doesn't love Jian Yi the same way???? Mfucking BL readers vs reading comprehension. THIS IS WHY THEY CALL US STUPID GUYS.

I cannot believe people did not get the implications of their relationship now they're adults. WITH Jian and Xixi going on mfucking DATES. Kissing, hugging, each other where Xixi basically doesn't push Jian away anymore. There's even a point where Xixi said he's serious about taking care of Jian for the rest of their days when he landed his job, and that THEY'LL BE LIVING TOGETHER ONCE HE SAVES UP FOR A PLACE. All Zhan Xi has on his office desk is a cup and a framed childhood picture of him and Jian. Also the RING ON VALENTINES, Xixi gave Jian A RING ON VALENTINES.

The disrespect towards my most favorite gay married couple. Just because ZhanYi not as smutty as MoTian. Just because Xixi's love language is acts of service. These homosexuals are as gay as they can be and hoes assume they're just roommates. THE DISRESPECT.

I cannot take it anymore. Why is there no smut stories available with chubby women characters around. What if I like my meat thick and juicy yk, why does it always have to be that whenever there's a thicc babe they're really fucking depressed or just tryna lose weight. I am done. I don't care if it's yuri or josei, just fucking give me something. These asian writers act like my big girls can't receive love and be seductive. I'M SO DONE SEEING TWIG ARMS AND FLAT STOMACHS. GIVE ME MY CHUBBY WOMEN.

Yk what I fucking can't. I love open discussions and hearing out people's review regarding mangas but there's this one motherfucker roaming around this GAY PORN SITE like a fucking cockroach pretending to be a butterfly.

Know-it-all bitch like they got a PHD on reviewing fictional stories, bitch CANNOT believe that others can fucking disagree with them. Single minded hoe who acts like they're ABOVE everyone else and everyone around them is simple minded just because they don't fucking share the same opinion.

TALK ABOUT A DUMBFUCK MINDSET, even professionals are open to criticism, this bitch immediately goes to attacking others just to defend their fucking opinion. I know we all entitled to one but BITCH— WHO ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE??? There's a difference between being "confident" over your opinion to ACTING LIKE WE'RE THE PROBLEM IF WE DON'T AGREE HOE.