Falling Inlove

Made friends with this guy while studying abroad. We laugh a lot, make a lot of dumb jokes, a lot of teasing. Friends sus that he likes me. Lowk ignored it, but after hanging out at a picnic one time I started to believe it, and I couldn’t repress my feelings.

Here’s my problem, never liked a guy before, don’t want to date (especially since we live in diff places ) (1) but lowk want to tell him in a letter I’ll give him then ghost when I go back to my country.

(2) Or should I keep the crush, secretly write him a letter I’m never gonna send, go back to my country then ghost him?

(3) I can just squash the feeling I’ve done it before but it’s hard cause we hang out all the time. Then go back to my country and ghost.


So 1, 2, or 3?