Tried To Kill Yourself

"Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man (or a woman) is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout "Do you worst! For I will do mine!"
-Edmond Dantes/The Count of Monte Cristo

I am too scared to go to a physiologist or therapy because of past problems but lately i have been having a lot of problems with myself and cant deal with people and i can be with my family but get tired at least mentally and when I finally try to go to bed my thoughts fill my head and I have trouble sleeping and get really sensitive with certain words or places because I get reminded of my past issue that caused me to go to court. this all happen years ago but for some reason it still bothers me a lot. is this normal am I being selfish or is this just a phase? I don't want to ask people personally because I feel like they might think I am crazy so why not ask people who don't know me.