I don’t know where else to say this

Y’all I’ve been clinging to my bisexual identity for awhile but I really sometimes feel like a lesbian. This like cis guy took interest me and it just felt like a chore so I told him I wasn’t interested in dating (he didn’t say he liked me but I could tell) because I feel like I’ve always envisioned liking men but also like having a girlfriend like I do t even know I don’t know how I could be confused after deciding I was bi like seven years ago. It’s not even that either I feel like I’d date transmen and they/he, but like not cis but I don’t even know I thought more gay people existed because all my friends are bi or pan I have like one straight friend so I guess I forgot people aren’t in that queer realm and it’s not as common. Like I was talking with some not close friends and they started talking about boyfriends and asked if I had one and it just felt strange that people assumed I’m straight (not to generalise but I have a pixie and wear flannels and eccentric jewelry) even though it’s natural because of society.

Y’all I don’t even know where I’m going with this I’m just complaining about like something not very important but I genuinely cannot tell if I even am interested in people romantically at all but at the same time I totally want a girlfriend and to be romantic like but her cute clothes and cook for her kiss and love and I feel like I’ve never actually like truly thought about what it would be like to actually date a guy who is was just a typical guy no queerness attached I don’t know it’s 2:39 am I need to sleep m