do u wanna be raped

Pure curiosity. I've stumbled upon an account that advocates for rape in yaoi, i feel that's not entirely new or even rare. So for the ones that do enjoy non-consensual sex or sexual violence contents, can i ask a few things?

is it exclusively a fantasy? or do u guys ever wish to be violated? if yes, does that affect your opinion on the act and think it's okay or is it only for yourself? are you guys affected when you hear about real life stories or you dont care about it? can you guys still sympathize to victims?

can i also asks if it somehow affects your everyday interaction with people, like getting anxious or feeling alienated. or is it something you can turn on and turn off?

also, do you think there's something wrong with yourself or you're neutral about it?

i hope I don't sound like im attacking, i genuinely wanna know so triggering you into defensive mode would not help ease me of my questions.