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so i want to try smoking a cigerette and i do not know how to T_T. (im not a minor dw)
i know it's bad for health and i shouldn't do it. i also know it can get addictive. but i just want to try it one time and get it over with. it's like an urge or something, like, whenever i see a character or a person irl smoking, I just want to know what about it is so good that people do it. i know curiosity kills the cat or whatever but it's in my bucket list, to smoke, not even a full cigerette, just one drag and i'm done. i js wanna do that smoke out of the mouth shit lmao. can any smoker or anyone who smokes in the past give me a tip on how to smoke correctly? like how to smoke so that i can smoke away the "smoke" if you know what i mean. and not cough vehemently or something. like, people who try their first cigarette start coughing and i'm guessing some of it might be from smoke but some of it is from wrong drag technique?
thanks a lot in advance!

what is a song you associate SO MUCH with a character/ship that verytime you listen to it, it reminds you of them?
eg.
mr. loverman – ashx eiji (banana fish)
and ofCOURSE this part is for gojo x geto (jjk)
"the ways in which you talk to me"–SUGURU
"have me wishing i were gone"–SATORU

copines – han seojum (true beauty)

i dont think most men understand what rape actually is. alot of men joke about it, also express a wish “to get raped by a hot older woman” oh YOU SO NOT WANT THAT. also, if you want to have sex how is it rape in the first place? do they think rape=being aggressive and getting manhandled? do they equate it to BDSM?
share your experiences where you were talking to a man and you realised that "oh. so he doesn't know what rape is”. i feel like the rape culture is too rampant.
also, they know JUST FINE what consent and rape is, when they think they're getting *hit on* by an achillean man.
i don't understand, do they think women can never be abusers, or groomers or rapists?

i have my birthday in like 1 month. also, i don't care much about my birthday i know i can't lose 30 kg by that time T_T. but I really need to lock in. do you have some underrated and unhinged tips to lose weight and fat?
i am mostly struggling with starting the fitness journey. i have been struggling with being SO FUCKING FAT since like, FOREVER. i want to be thin gang like it's so bad. i just want to be fitter and leaner. and no, not that ozempic body, thankfully im out of the shackles of the pr0-4na tumblr side. but I still need to be HOT like i genuinely want to be HOT for me. i love being attractive sorry if it sounds shallow but i wanna see my full potential. and I know there's no peak, i'm forever evolving, but I need to start somewhere.
so please, I just need some motivation on starting fitness journey. basically some pep talk and good useful underrated wierd unhinged tips that helps you to get that bawdy TEA!
i already know the calories deficit, 10K steps, hitting protein and fiber intake of the day, sleep etc. i'm just struggling to start like i need to start i know but it's so hard for no fricking reason.
also, some youtubers (with free challenges calender or programs) which are good for beginners, it can be cardio, pilates, bodyweight, HIIT, yoga anything. i lost all core strength T_T need to restart pilates for core strength( pilates is #1 for core strength, i can vouch for it istg). also, can y'all share your workout split that works for you. also, no i dont go to gym, i don't have all-female gyms nearby and the co-ed gyms are NOT it. i have deep fear of indian men (yes yo' girl indian T_T this country is not for the weak, i feel it's not for the strong either. being a woman in india who's FAT and queer and not have skin as white than chalk? literal HELL.) i js do NOT fw indian men, lord save me T_T. also, why gyms so expensive and i don't have spare time to go spend 1hr in gym to pay hefty fee (i don't have dumbbells, only resistance bands :D).
also, i'm lacto-vegetarian btw ;)

any advice is appreciated. you can also share your personal weight loss or fitness journey.

xoxo
mr rover <3

so, we have a friend group, of 5 women(say, me, A,M,J,C). we were friends from college. and yesterday i met with one of my friends(A) and she told me she's seeing this one guy(i have also met him once or twice, she and him were friends before). and i was like oh, good for you! then she told me that one of our other friends(M) is also dating this other guy(i also met him once, he was okay i guess, but M liked him.), and i was like, okay i saw it coming. then we accidentally meet our other friend(J) and she didn't tell us that she was in a relationship but from our chats it feels like she's in a talking stage and have something going on with a guy. so, i text C today, to tell her about these deets (she remains MIA most of the time) and she was like, the same level of "misandrist" as me T_T, and she was also bi (all my other friends are straight, thats what they have told me). so C also tells me she got a bf too?!?! omg im so shocked, all my friends got a bf and here i am, i legit don't talk to men at ALL. im not jealous or sad or anything, i dont even want to be in a relationship, but oh god the concept of all of them getting together with men, in similar time duration is so baffling to me T_T.
now i feel like im the one left out, and i feel a bit distanced. (they didn't put the distance between us, it's just....you know. feels like an odd one out). the thing i dont even wanna get a bf or a relationship, but this feels like induced FOMO.

someone sedated me what drug has gege akutami put in these characters. i need to get admitted into psych ward. talking about them is not enough i need them to merge souls T_T. we could create a religion out of their dynamic, i'm not even joking T_T. they're giving me brain damage–they've become so sacred to me i feel like i have started to see god in the love between them. gege, when i catch you gege! the censored last words of gojo to geto are my roman empire. at this point i don't even want to know what he said, words will reduce the depth of the emotion shared. i have officially gone insane for them. i want what they have, their love is so poetic.
“we were like gods at the dawning of the world, and our not was so bright we could see nothing but each other”
“everything is beautiful because we are doomed. you will never be lovelier than you are now. we will never be here again.”
“do you love her? they asked. i said, speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life” (i feel this one resonates when gojo spoke in shibuya, addressing geto, and geto's body retaliated against kenjaku)
“when are we going to meet?
after a year and the war.
when will the war end?
when we meet.” (oh it slaps so hard, it fits so right)
“beyond the ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there's a field. i'll meet you there.” (the airport scene)

oh god i can write about them for ages and ages. i love them so much. thank you so much gege akutami, satoru and suguru changed my life and my perspective. they rewired my brain chemistry.

Guys I know this is a predominantly BL site, so I wanna ask here. Everywhere I look, I see yaoi. Am I the one which is too yaoipilled or people are js straight up ignoring obvious gay subtexts(or sometimes, even texts).
So, some of the ancient/historical examples I saw:
• Achilles and Patroclus (they're mostly accepted as lovers but still alot of people deny and say they were just really close friends)
• Alexander and Hephaestion (Again, they're mostly considered best pals, but Alexander's out of proportion reaction to Hephaestion's death and how they considered themselves akin to Achilles and Patroclus makes me question and go ‘Ayo?’ to their relationship dynamic)
• Gilgamesh and Enkidu (so many people say they were js friends and were straight bc Gilgamesh was a casanova (and coerced women to sleep with him), and Enkidu literally became ‘tame’ after sleeping with a woman, but their friendship is too chummy that it's sus. And what's more, Gilgamesh’s mother even accepts Enkidu as her own son and says to Gilgamesh, ‘You will love him like a wife’ or something along the lines of that. And Gilgamesh also rejects the goddess when she asks for marriage, and rather chooses to be with Enkidu, his best friend. (Although there was more reason of him rejecting her, but still this reason can also still stand which makes me raise eyebrows).
• the David x Jonathan saga in the Bible. Look, I'm not christian, but I js checked their story out (some christian replied to my comment talking about them and how not everything is gay, when David x Jonathan are doing VERY gay sh*t T_T). Like, wdym Jonathan immidiately liked David and felt soul connection? Taking off his robe and giving him his sword? David saying his love for him is more than he loves any woman? Yeah, that's very gay if you ask me.
• Rumi x Shamz : now people might argue that rumi wrote love proses for God, but he was literally writing for Shamz. Like, Shamz left Rumi & he was so devastated he wrote love and loss sonnets dedicated to him directly and indirectly, and not one or two, we're talking 3000+. That's dedication, ain't no way y'all can convince me that it was not love for Shamz but for God.

These are just some ancient stories, the manga stories are a tale of another time, because TRUST there are a lot of them which makes me suspicious but people TOTALLY fram them as besties exclusively.

What are your thoughts?
Peace out, stan #satosugu!

lmao i dont even read jinx but this manhwa pmo so bad. it's gives off "i can fix him" energy, and feels like bottom is a self insert of a girl but w/ a dick. i have seen this pattern with bj alex as well. both of her stories are shit but this one is worse than bj alex which i don't even understand how. how can you stoop lower than bj alex is beyond me but whatever. also, the characters are ugly. no problem with them being ugly but readers need to stop lying to themselves about it. the conflict has dragged for so long, and i am sick of comments showing me jinx in my fyp all the time. the top is irredeemable, and the chasing arc wasn't even long enough. everything is revolving around the top. his problems, his jinx, his behaviour, his guilt, whatever. who cares about the bottom? no one, bc who wants to care about bottom when mr big dick is here who can fuck a whole town lmao. y'all wanna dickride the top so bad, it shows. i really wish the author js pulls up a fujimoto and does what he did with chainsaw man, end it all. js end with the bottom leaving the city, and starting a clinic in some small town. while the top, well i don't care about him at all. but top repents and learns to move on. i js want jinx to end so if stops showing up on my fyp.
ps. on that note, im happy "low tide in twilight" is not ongoing, i would have been so pissed at people glazing the top. LTIT fans are the most insufferable fans i have seen. i am a b*to refugee and although i miss that site, one thing about mgg users is that they've been really kind to me, and overall more sensible. people on that site glazed LTIT's top like their life depended on it, and when i used to point out how BAD he is, they used to pull out a "he got redemption" card. well, what the fuck? i dare you to say that when your a rich man rapes a poor woman who is discharged from a mental hospital, rapes her again and again, with risks of her getting pregnant, then gets a "redemption" bc he got attached to her, and starts treating her nice afterwards, and gets her pregnant. i'm sorry but i need to clock you, y'all are giving epstein files defenders. yes, i said it and i mean it. y'all look like you're defending the names that appeared on that list.

i have a feeling that my friends have changed since they got a boyfriend. one of my friends got a boyfriend, and she hangs out with her bf's friends alot. i have no problem with that, but one day she came to meet me. and we were just hanging out, and we decided we'll go have some chai(tea) from outside in the evening. her bf and his friends live nearby, and she had to give something to her bf, so i had no problem inviting them for chai as well. we get to the market, and her bf's friends decide that they'll have egg rolls from some shop before. now, i live in a place where there's a curfew time (9:30 pm) so i can't be late. they're all boys (except me and my friend) so they don't have any curfew time (and my friend's curfew time is 10:15 pm). she already knew that my curfew time is earlier, and i even mentioned it half an hour beforehand. ofcourse, i can't mention it in front of her boyfriend and his friends that “hey, we decided on having chai, so why the sudden change of plans, when it was YOU who wanted to meet me in the first place”. (she was the one who was adamant on wanting to come to my room, and hanging out. i suggested going to some fun place, and she refused bc she has already been there THRICE with her boyfriend. so i was like okay, next time. she also had an exam coming up 2 days ahead. so i suggested meeting up after her exam, but she was adamant so i was like "okay no problem from my side").
so ofcourse the order is late, and the shop we went to was predominantly a non-vegetarian food catering shop. they do have veg options (like, 2 or 3). i'm the only one who has veg food choices, i'm not asking them to be veg like me, i have no problem with their eating choices. but it just felt like they didn't consider my eating choices at all. (am i being entitled here? i don't know. i know i shouldn't ask them to go to a veg-only shop but going to a place where veg options are limited when you have someone who's veg is a bit ignorant to me. it's like going to a cafe with limited non-lactose options when one of the person is lactose intolerant. we can just go to a place where either non-lactose options are plentiful so everyone can choose accordingly. i would do that, even if i'm not lactose intolerant, bc i know one of my friends is). now the order is late, so i have to get my portion packed (i didn't even want to order it) and we didn't have chai, and now i have to walk to my place alone at night all bc her boyfriend and co. decided something else. great!
i just felt a bit sad bc i can't say to HER bf that we had different plans before (it would be rude, I'm not friends with her bf right?) but she could've said it and she didn't. didn't even message me to ask if i reached my place or not. then next day, posts in our friend group the pictures of her hanging out with them and it looks like i was the one who joined their hangout impromptu(we had this friend group before she and 2 of my other friends got a bf). crazy.
i just feel like they're losing me, honestly. i won't say it to their faces bc what can i even say? but i can feel the cracks slipping in, and i have started feeling nostalgic, missing the friendship even if we are still friends. i really like spending time with them, but it seems like they've changed, and my space in their life has decreased. we've gone distant, now all we ever talk is about her bf or what she's upto, i feel like i have nothing to contribute to the conversation. i can talk about my research project and career uncertainties but it brings up a sad vibe so we don't talk about it much. i am forgetting what did we even talk about before they got a bf?
i have always felt that girls change after getting a bf, i don't like it honestly. they'll say they haven't changed, but i feel it. is it just means or girls with bfs are just so exhausting to hang out with?
i still love my friends, but it's different now. i love what we used to be before boys came into picture.
they're really losing me. i feel like i'm being left behind. and all because what? i don't have a boyfriend? i don't even want a boyfriend. a girl gets a bf and suddenly wants all her friends to find a bf too like what?

so i was texting in my friend group how i was rewatching link click and i ship lu guang and cheng xiaoshi so hard(i said in a joking manner even though they're personally one of my ultimate ships). i also said “please don't make me watch naruto i will never shut up about naruto and sasuke” and one of my friends texted “watch heated rivalry don't bring this into naruto” and i was so confused like how can they NOT ship narusasu like?! even if they don't SHIP ship it, they should've atleast seen something going on between them right?! and then my other friend texted in the group that “BL, GL kuch nahi bhaii, i hate...cheee”(BL, GL is nothing bro, i hate..... eww) and she was like “why do girls even like BLs?” T_T. one of them said “i support LGBTQ, okay? but i don't understand the concept” T_T. and like, one of them said that i should go outside and do some yoga (in context of me saying that i would probably ship narusasu). and i felt like, so bad. mainly bc i have told them that i'm bi. and it was so wierd, reading these texts. like, so if in future i get a gf would they think this? T_T. i don't know. i don't hate them they're genuinely good friends but like, i felt so bad. i texted “i support straight relationships but i don't understand the concept” (as a reply) XD. no one has texted anything back after this though lol.
ps. i am lowkey happy i didn't say i ship satosugu I would have NOT been able to take any criticism, they're my #1 ship EVER. they're so canon in my head i genuinely start tweaking when people outright dismiss any potential more-than-friends discussion of them.

so many people are hating on francesca and michaela, saying her story is ruined, and there shouldn't be a lesbian love story. they're quoting reasons like the struggles of francesca not being able to have children are going to get "ignored", and her friend of losing her husband is not taken "seriously". and the wlw should've been introduced for eloise's character. what you all think about it? i personally do NOT get the hate. the infertility issues and grief can be processed even if she gets with a woman. and some people are accusing francesca of emotional cheating.
personally it feels like double standards, so y'all were okay when benedict was bi, and anthony was emotionally cheating on kate's little sister, but now it's a wlw so it's a problem. straight women are homophobic as well, it's just that mlm romance (like heated rivalry) "turns them on" and they find it "hot" to see gay action that's why they enjoy mlm but not wlw.
the way women are turning around justifying that they're not homophobic but the storyline is not good–no.
the thing is, they don't find two women hot together. that's the problem. and it's fine if you don't want to watch it, but hating is wierd.
like straight women will love seeing a "rake"(walking STD) get with a "blushing" innocent virgin, and a big power imbalance, but as soon as it's two women (who became friends first) it's suddenly a problem? look at our feminists dawg we ain't never making it out of patriarchy and heteronormativity.

sometimes i'm watching something and i immediately clock if something is queer or not, and when i point it out to cis-heterosexual people, they mostly either take it as a joke or dismiss it. why can't they see the blatant subtext that lies in pieces of media?

it happened with "protect your purity" and it's happening with "love order" again. i dont think i can do it, im getting ptsd, my retroactive jealousy OCD is getting triggered so hard, i don't blame anyone either, it's a me problem. idk why im like this. i have 0 idea. virgin X experienced dynamic makes me nauseous, it's giving me so much anxiety, and overall such bad feeling. one part of it is power imbalance, as i dont like power imbalances, but there's another part, idk. i cant pinpoint what exactly it is, but I js can't digest a trope like this. i cant shake it off. even seeing the cover of the story (in updates) gives me anxiety and a flood of bad nauseous feeling. it feels like i have to emotionally cut myself off and distance myself. this problem makes it harder to engage with any story. i mean what's the point of reading a story if im not even reading it with my heart in it? and ofcourse i stop reading these stories (if i can, i avoid these stories at the first place like a plague) but the fact that i even started those in first place is enough to make me attached to the story and now everytime i will see the cover i get reminded of story and it triggers my anxiety so bad. it's driving me insane. i think i need to stop reading for a while. this is not normal, i know, but i js cant seem to escape this cage. it's giving me so much palpitations and nausea. like im being cheated on or something.

so, look back by fujimoto, i personally think fujino and kyomoto had a very codependent homoromantic tense bestfriendship, but a lot of people online say that they had nothing going on, and fujimoto wrote it for his self-reflection.
i mean, the ship name is literally author's name, (fujino+kyomoto→fujimoto), so i fail to understand how people don't even stop to think about this possibility? am i too gay or are people too heteronomative and homophobic?

ship so good that the donghua name(shiguang dailiren) is based on it. cheng xiaoshi x lu guang→shiguang.
i just realised my top ships have the dynamic “doomed by the narrative but we're also just some silly guys ;P’’
satosugu
shiguang
phaidei

i want a bf bc 3 of my friends got a bf and one of my friends is on hinge and im so single but honestly i couldn't even care, i js sometimes feel fomo bc what exactly is so cool abt having a bf i wanna know lmao. i can get the charm behind wanting a bf but like, what would i gain? plus, i dont think men even love women. i feel i'm the same. i don't like men i js like how they look. i believe in this society an egalitarian hetero relationship is not really possible. i want to have a bf but i feel the experience would be disappointing :/
ps. this was js a rant lol. had a convo w my friend (she broke up and her ex keeps calling her randomly she's so sick of it lmao)

i am very much intrigued and attracted to black flags, characters who are irredeemable psychotic beings. when i say black flags, i dont mean rapists exclusively. not rapists. but people who are just so clinically insane that their moral compass is broken and skewed or simply doesn't exist. which makes them borderline uninterested in romance sometimes.
eg. dan from brutal satsujin, oh inseop from for your murder, amy dunne from gone girl, sukuna from jujutsu kaisen.
and the thing is, their attractiveness is extreme to me BECAUSE they're insane. the moment they become "human", i lose interest. why is it so?

since i have 0 social media i'm going to post my junk journal spreads on illegal yaoi smut site lol.
(pictures are in replies)
i would love if you shared your journal spreads as well!

1. Women are responsible for what men do.

2. Women saying no to men is a hate crime.

3. Women speaking for themselves are exclusionary and selfish.

4. Women’s opinions are violence against men, thus male violence against women is justified.

5. Women and Feminism must be useful to men or they are worthless.

6. Women who go around being female AT men by menstruating and breastfeeding babies deserve punishment.

7. Women should always be grateful to men for everything.

8. Men are whatever men say they are and women are whatever men say they are.

9. Men always know the “real reasons” for everything women do and say.

10. The worst thing about male violence is that it makes men look bad.

11. Whatever women suffer from, it is worse when it happens to men.

12. Women’s ability to recognize male behavior patterns is misandry.

13. Angry women are crazy. Angry men have trouble expressing themselves.

14. Women have all the rights they need: The right to remain silent.

15. Men are the default human. Women are strange subhuman others.

16. Everyone owns and controls women’s bodies except the women themselves.

I came across these rules and it made me realise that alot of bad faith arguments as well as all the crimes and discrimination can be traced back to these points.

yeah the title is funny but hear me out, i'm bi. but sometimes i feel like I'm so fricking gay. like, i don't even want men or something (also bc men are so fucking uncompetetive when it comes to dating i've given up before even trying). and i love women (★v★) lately i am feeling like i can't find men attractive anymore, not bc their looks or anything (well, most of them are chopped anyway) but more bc of their personality. it's like they NEVER consider women as true humans, even the most feminist of men will still look at women as women first and not consider them as true humans (for some reason, they're incapable of this, idk) and women are so nice and amazing and i love them! but i do feel attraction to men's faces/features though. it's like i see men as muses, i love the idea of them, but i never myself give them the liberty of being “them”. they should be perfect men in order for me to be like, yeah i like this guy. maybe i'm a #womaninmalefields. with women, i'm more of an observer, if I like a woman, i like her completely, i don't put her in bounds, i enjoy her company, i like listening to her opinions. with men, it's like i am walking on eggshells, that he'll say something that is so baffling i won't even believe he's serious. it feels like i'm constantly watching my footsteps or being conscious around them. it feels like a cognitive dissonance, to like someone whom i also am afraid of, in general.
this makes me drift towards women, but where i live, being open in a wlw relationships is not only problematic, people find it either “not real” or fetishize it. the jokes of “scissoring” or the boys thinking i look at women the same way they look at women, and how they degrade women and think they're complementing them. while straight women either dismiss me being bi or question me endlessly on what is my type in women, or if i like them, and if not, why? also, I find it wierd when straight women flirt with me in a friendly manner, i know they're joking and it's fine mostly, but it would be so wierd if *i* do the same, bc then it would feel awkward, as i DO INFACT am capable of romantically liking women. so my flirting is seen as serious while theirs is not.
i'm sorry if it felt like a rant. bc it was lol. it's like i'm battling with this dilemma of finding men attractive while also knowing they are in general, VILE people who don't look at women as humans. and finding women attractive but feeling like an odd one out bc i am scared to be in a relationship with a woman in the society i live in, it won't be considered serious enough, or real enough, and i'm a person who doesn't like doing casual relationships, so what if we're commited and parents are against it? and society shuns is? we get beaten up or worse things like that? i need to get financially independent. i don't even know how to approach a woman bc it feels so scary, what if she's not into women and feels threatened by me?(people in my area don't have good image of people attracted to same gender, they find it 'wierd')
i end up being in this place where i feel like i'm not straight enough for the heterosexuals and not gay enough for the homosexuals. and i feel like i have no hope for romance in my life.