hospital room or e.r., preferably one-shotted by a heart attack or brain stroke
(bc if i die in my apt, our landlord would have a hard time finding another resident, not in crowded spaces either bc i don't want my death to cause anyone trauma... i just wanna die in peace)
i have a humongous ego so i don't showit
#nonchalant but every embarrassing moment (which somehow happens every single day) is a self-humiliating ritual that randomly starts playing in my head and the embarrassment does NOT lessen over time :')
my mom
(she's visiting and keeps waking me up an hour before my alarm bc "you take too long to be done with makeup and it's not like you're attending a fashion show")
deleted my acc during lockdown bc social media spaces became exhausting to be in then.
i mostly lurk on insta now and then and prefer talking and hanging out in person but tbf i never liked texting in the first place (feels like idk when to stop, it's easier to gauge that irl imo).
bonus point, i don't have to deal with ads (outside of yt and t......
listening to favorites over and over again is pretty common; there's some sense of comfort with listening to something familiar, esp when i'm stressed out.
as for new music, a lot of ppl stick to mainstream songs that showup in playlists, short-form videos, radio or whatever.
personally, i just pick a genre i like and listen to some random play......
vitamin d deficiency is not trivial, get checked asap; getting stiff necks often, daytime drowsiness even on well-rested days, lack of stamina, low muscle strength etc etc are all telltale signs of deficiency so don't dismiss it by saying it's common or "everyone has that" and go see a doc ffs *cries in recent severe deficiency report due to impair......
i think of them as dead in my mind or wish them death (mentally, no irl plotting) asap... but tbf i rarely hate someone, they'd have to be a pedophile or a rapist for me to hate them
get the ability to teleport.
having to be stuck in slow moving traffic every time i go to work and come back home gets exhausting real fast. i'm sacrificing on sleep to leave early so that i make it in time and i alr have difficulty falling asleep ffs┗( T﹏T )┛
my hs classroom at the time of sunset (the windows have an ombré tint from the top tho).
it's for nostalgic effect bc it truly was the best time for me, esp since i graduated during lockdowns so everything after hs was downhill for me until 2025 began (〜￣△￣)〜
the sound of scratching fabric; it makes me wanna rip off my nails ughfghfhfhgh（/TДT)/
vanilla-coffee, marine, lavender-sage, sandalwood-faux musk, vetiver, jasmine... any of those as attar (concentrated perfume oil roll-on) bc spray-on perfumes don't last on me more than 3 hrs, esp since i live in a hot and very humid city. perfume balms can work but i prefer to apply attar on my clothes to avoid allergy flareups, and balms aren't s......
highest priority goes to what gives you more credits.
then, consider group presentation bc you're part of a team and i assume they're all working hard so don't let their efforts go to waste.
and then, if you still have the energy and mindspace, study for the test (i'd look up previous exam papers and try to solve that while referencing the stud......
donald trump is good for the economy
quantum download machine!
see anything you like on the internet? complete the payment and location pinpoint process and download it to your current space (it won't be free unless it's a donation bc ppl need to earn money to be able to buy things for themselves too)
you can even send things to your friends and family
whatever attar (concentrated perfume oil roll-on) my local shop stocks. i like the vanilla-coffee, marine, lavender-sage, sandalwood-faux musk, vetiver, and jasmine variants. spray-on perfumes don't last more than 3 hours on my skin bc of the weather where i live (v hot and humid)
isn't junk food technically trash? then, i've been eating it every day bruh #saveearth
sorry, buddy, doctor pinched me to get me on it right when i was born... now, i can't live without it
sarcasm only works when the ppl around you KNOW you hold no malice. otherwise, you'll just come off as an asshole.
i'm glad my close circle is filled with ppl i've known for years but it also leaves me clueless when i have to talk to someone new. so, every time i try to be funny, my chances of messing up are 50/50 ┑(￣Д ￣)┍
getting back to working out every day
(i sprained my elbow once doing something unrelated and i've been procrastinating even after fully recovering for months now... my stamina has become shit and i should start working out again but beginnings do be tough
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idc what anyone says, i get lapras (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧