For some reason I have posts on here from middle school talking about how hot girls are and how much I love women and about how I wish my crush was gay from before I even knew I was gay???? did I have a secret gay past that I repressed so hard I had to come out to myself twice???? I have literally no memory of thinking I was gay, having a crush, or every even thinking about it. help what is wrong with my brain.
Do other people also start forgetting what you liked so much about your partner after not seeing them for a while? I think I might be a little neurodivergent so that might be a factor but when I don't see my partner for like more than a week its like I KNOW what I like about them but I can't remember the positive feelings attached to those things or memories just the negative ones and we text all the time but I cant really hold the same emotion from it I feel like I'm always about to fall out of love but then I see them again and everything is ok and they're perfect and wonderful ╥ ╥
am i gay if i kind of want a girlfriend and find girls very attractive but if i met a cute boy i might be okay with dating him? like i will look at a cute girl think wow shes adorably cute then look at the guy next to her and be like i guess he sort of cute i maybe i could date him he has nice hair?
