i have tried to kill myself around i think 10 times? i am severely mentally manic, and not okay. but i cannot tell anyone, you know why? because my head tells me it’s a bad idea. so i never tell anyone i know who are close to me. because i don’t want them to know. i was verbally abused and ABANDONED because of the way i am. i am AFRAID of telli...... reply
i have tried to kill myself atleast 3 times and it was a hellish time for me as i was an outsider in my class 1st one was by hanging on a rope and the rope didnt last long as i my vision started to darken the rope couldnt hold itself anymore and the rope just cut itself and i fell with a little injury on my legs 2nd time was through getting hit by ...... 1 reply
There's nothing wrong with you and your not stupid. I can't tell you what's really wrong with you with little information given, but I do have some ideas on what it is. If you'd like to talk about it, I'd be happy to lend an ear. reply
Today, I tried self harming and it didn't hurt or bleed sadly but then I realised what I was doing. Self harming is wrong and idk why I did that even though I know there's nothing wrong with me (I think). Now I am confused. My life isn't bad and I think I'm happy. I didn't have a hard time today (I think), I was just really nervous about a family gathering. What does this mean? I mean maybe it has the fact that I remember hating my cousins for a reason I forgot?? Anyways, am I just seeking attention or is there something wrong with me??? Am I just being stupid???
I know for some people saying u could have it worse is not helpful at all, but as someone who has most likely had it worse and has been severely depressed and suicidal for 20yrs (since about 12-13yrs, I’m now 34yrs old), I’ve picked up some stuff that might help:
Firstly, if you do want help and it seems like you do, TALK TO YOUR FAMILY. Even ...... reply
IT DOES NOT MATTER IF ITS NORMAL or not, IF YOU DON’T LIKE what someone else is doing to you TELL THEM.
If your brother hits u and u want it to stop, talk to him about it calmly & with emotional control. Tell him how it makes you feel & if he doesn’t care, inform him that it is classified as abuse.
With the friends, tell them you want to stay ...... reply
Well, I do fight with my brothers for fun, but that only involves punching that won't hurt. So I'll say that as long as your brother's punches don't hurt, it's fine/normal. If it hurts, it's not normal.
As for the laughing, I'd say it depends if it's mixed with other feelings.
My brothers being such drama-loving people, of course they're gonna en...... reply
That's not normal, like no joke. If i were you, i would've shaved my brother's head for punching me and put wasabi up his nostrils when he sleeps... then grab the other fucker's balls for sexually harrassing me and show him real harrassment. Like BRUHH! Fight back! Don't do this to yourself and get confused, you gotta stand up for what is right! An...... 1 reply
No! That isn't normal at all! From what I'm guessing, your family doesn't seem to care that your brother is hitting you at all! If you keep letting him hit you, he'll think that it'll be ok to hit others.
Also, you got sexual assaulted and your family didn't care at all and laughed it off? They didn't even call the police or something?
I'm sorry,...... 1 reply
Thats not normal! And in any circumstances, that will never be normal. You are being gas-lighted by your abuser, making you think that his/their abuses and harrassment didn't happened. Please seek help! 1 reply
