about character obsession
about school is stressful
There's a girl in my honours choir who will not shut up to save her life, she likes to raise her hand and talk about her weekend, IN DETAIL- she wants to do a solo with her little sister who is in primary school. For solo auditions she did "I'm a banana" thinking it would be funny, she spammed the zoom chat with cat emojis while we were singing a disney song for warmup because she lIKeD the SonG.
She makes me cringe every time I think about her, so, share the people who make you have cringe attacks.
She makes me cringe every time I think about her, so, share the people who make you have cringe attacks.
about my religion
i just want to know if im experiencing the same as everybody.
i dont believe in god, and my parents keeps forcing me to believe in their beliefs. i just want to live a life where im not force to do anything just because this and that is a must. they kept forcing me to pray, and im scared rn on what they might do to me if keep on disobeying. is it really that hard to live freely? ppl just want to live why do we need to struggle so much?
im not yet in a legal age to runaway to do something, due to my fear on my parents. and if i did im sure i'll end up nothing. my mom's family is way to religious, im not joking if i tell yall that my uncle and grandpa killed somebody that pissed them off, ofc they faced the consequences of it. but if they were to learn what i am thinking, im good as dead. while my father have the tendency to be abusive he've done it many times.
idek anymore, everything is just making me tired lately.
i dont believe in god, and my parents keeps forcing me to believe in their beliefs. i just want to live a life where im not force to do anything just because this and that is a must. they kept forcing me to pray, and im scared rn on what they might do to me if keep on disobeying. is it really that hard to live freely? ppl just want to live why do we need to struggle so much?
im not yet in a legal age to runaway to do something, due to my fear on my parents. and if i did im sure i'll end up nothing. my mom's family is way to religious, im not joking if i tell yall that my uncle and grandpa killed somebody that pissed them off, ofc they faced the consequences of it. but if they were to learn what i am thinking, im good as dead. while my father have the tendency to be abusive he've done it many times.
idek anymore, everything is just making me tired lately.
about crying
https://www.amazon.com/Kissing-Coronavirus-M-J-Edwards-ebook/dp/B087KR2CQC
I want to know the thought process, everything. I also want to die.
I want to know the thought process, everything. I also want to die.
so i have something very important that im about to say i want to make sure everyone is reading when i say this. i just saw a vegeta x goku on myreadingmanga
about character obsession
You guys are taking over romance and I'm sad :( stop pushing your agenda into romance it's not good for my kids. I'm straight and I'm proud all the other sexualities can sit the fuck down I'm the reason gay bitches around if you straight match my vibe
about question
Y'all ever think about that one person who looks so fucking hot it actually offends you? Like that person's so fucking beautiful and sexy it just makes you want to commit toaster bath? Like that individual could sleep with your mom, s.o., dad, grandma, grandpa, cousins, uncles, aunts, your boss, your teacher, your best friend, and you'd just be sitting here like dumbass admiring how fucking beautiful they are? Like they're so gorgeous you can't decide whether or not you want to be with them or want to BE them. Like genuinely, I want to know.
about being a fucking edgelord
I just wanna know >_>
hell I'll say what I remember-
I used to put a mattress or something on the stairs and slide down then bump my head- gosh I was dumb :^
hell I'll say what I remember-
I used to put a mattress or something on the stairs and slide down then bump my head- gosh I was dumb :^
about question
I accidentally put gasoline on it because I needed lube and I lit I up because it wasn't getting hot and now it's on fire should I call the ER?
about get to know you
For some background knowledge, we dated a year ago and he was one of the catalysts for me realizing I was a lesbian so ladies hmu (▰˘◡˘▰)
Onto the story:
It was Valentine's day (how fun) and we BOTH wanted to do something together but we knew we could go to a restaurant because they were packed. So, instead, we went to our school's musical.
I wanted to see my friends perform, and I could also spend time with my boyfriend to win.
I asked him multiple times to make sure he wanted to go because I wasn't sure if he would be interested in going and every time it was, "Yeah that's fine."
~Fast forward to the day of the play~
When we were there, the whole time he wanted to do *Stuff* which I really didn't want to (At the time I thought it was just because I want in the mood but really I was gay). At intermission, he pulled me into a back hallway and made me kiss him (Not like forcing me but "You would kiss me if you loved me").
I did and his breath tasted really bad and I always avoided kissing him because it did. Eventually, we go back inside for the play to start again and he went from holding my hand to grabbing my thigh which I ignored because I didn't want to come off as a bitch or something. But then he kept grabbing at me so I told him to stop because I was trying to watch the play. He took this as an "Okay I should do something that doesn't obscure her view." So he proceeded to choke me (Which I said I was into because my only experience with men was through mafia ABO fanfictions on Wattpad). At first, I thought he was just putting his arm around me but then he just put me in a chokehold and I was like ??? so in response I whisper yelled,
"Can you stop, your hands stink," which they really did, specifically like old pennies and cheese? So for the rest of the play, he was all sad and he stopped talking to me and when we got home we argued which was very normal for us. He said things like "I didn't even want to go to the play" (even though he literally told me that) or "You won't even let me touch you, what's going to happen when we ACTUALLY have sex. Are you going to get scared last second" (Which if I did you should simply respect my wishes and back off but he has a history for doing the opposite).
I have many more stories about this dude like when after we broke up he threatened to KMS himself because he was so "sad without me" so I stayed up till 1 am playing geography games because I didn't need his death on my conscience.
Anywho you can share some of your stories about your ex-partners or even friends if you want to make me feel better about me wasting 5 months of my life.
Onto the story:
It was Valentine's day (how fun) and we BOTH wanted to do something together but we knew we could go to a restaurant because they were packed. So, instead, we went to our school's musical.
I wanted to see my friends perform, and I could also spend time with my boyfriend to win.
I asked him multiple times to make sure he wanted to go because I wasn't sure if he would be interested in going and every time it was, "Yeah that's fine."
~Fast forward to the day of the play~
When we were there, the whole time he wanted to do *Stuff* which I really didn't want to (At the time I thought it was just because I want in the mood but really I was gay). At intermission, he pulled me into a back hallway and made me kiss him (Not like forcing me but "You would kiss me if you loved me").
I did and his breath tasted really bad and I always avoided kissing him because it did. Eventually, we go back inside for the play to start again and he went from holding my hand to grabbing my thigh which I ignored because I didn't want to come off as a bitch or something. But then he kept grabbing at me so I told him to stop because I was trying to watch the play. He took this as an "Okay I should do something that doesn't obscure her view." So he proceeded to choke me (Which I said I was into because my only experience with men was through mafia ABO fanfictions on Wattpad). At first, I thought he was just putting his arm around me but then he just put me in a chokehold and I was like ??? so in response I whisper yelled,
"Can you stop, your hands stink," which they really did, specifically like old pennies and cheese? So for the rest of the play, he was all sad and he stopped talking to me and when we got home we argued which was very normal for us. He said things like "I didn't even want to go to the play" (even though he literally told me that) or "You won't even let me touch you, what's going to happen when we ACTUALLY have sex. Are you going to get scared last second" (Which if I did you should simply respect my wishes and back off but he has a history for doing the opposite).
I have many more stories about this dude like when after we broke up he threatened to KMS himself because he was so "sad without me" so I stayed up till 1 am playing geography games because I didn't need his death on my conscience.
Anywho you can share some of your stories about your ex-partners or even friends if you want to make me feel better about me wasting 5 months of my life.
about lose a friend
a falling cohabitation k-drama will air on May 5 2021 in Korea
about drawing
Heyyy guyss heres an update soo since Levi won on the other post um doing the game board so I need to hear from
Levi's Cleaning Rag (has already contacted me :D)
Celestia
ForgottenBreadSlice3
um-
Hajimeshopetitties
AntisocialCappucino
mud
IHateReality ☆馬鹿☆
Disgustang
LiKe MaTe StOp PrOcRaStInAtIng
just gimme a idea of how u want to look :D
Levi's Cleaning Rag (has already contacted me :D)
Celestia
ForgottenBreadSlice3
um-
Hajimeshopetitties
AntisocialCappucino
mud
IHateReality ☆馬鹿☆
Disgustang
LiKe MaTe StOp PrOcRaStInAtIng
just gimme a idea of how u want to look :D
about answer question
if ever there is a case , that means she's straight or lesbian like for me i will consider her as a lesbian because she a woman u know .
about i'm looking for friends
TW: sexual harassment
My question is it right to say I haven't had my first kiss?
So how do y'all define first kiss? Cuz for me it'd be kissing someone whose not your family or parents....but what if it's someone else's parents?....that doesn't count right? It's been always bothering me, I'd always feel complicated and disgusted everytime I was asked if I already had my first kiss...of course I would answer " no " but I know that's not true cuz some fucker did it first when I was fucking five- and that fuckass was my friend's dad! And then my friend came back and the trauma was already done and that asshole said "don't tell anyone about this ha?" And damn it already been 10 years since then and no one not even my parents knows this .
(I mean I already moved on from that since it's been so long but the trauma is still there. I am so fucking scared around men specially older men.)
Sorry if I am not making any sense cuz I'm actually sweating a lot right now hahaha...anyway good night!!
My question is it right to say I haven't had my first kiss?
So how do y'all define first kiss? Cuz for me it'd be kissing someone whose not your family or parents....but what if it's someone else's parents?....that doesn't count right? It's been always bothering me, I'd always feel complicated and disgusted everytime I was asked if I already had my first kiss...of course I would answer " no " but I know that's not true cuz some fucker did it first when I was fucking five- and that fuckass was my friend's dad! And then my friend came back and the trauma was already done and that asshole said "don't tell anyone about this ha?" And damn it already been 10 years since then and no one not even my parents knows this .
(I mean I already moved on from that since it's been so long but the trauma is still there. I am so fucking scared around men specially older men.)
Sorry if I am not making any sense cuz I'm actually sweating a lot right now hahaha...anyway good night!!
about i'm looking for friends
TW: mentions of su*cide, religions
Honestly, I don't necessarily hate nor love my parents. They all just feel distant to me.
I'm not the type to hold deep grudges. Especially against my parents. But I just felt the need to after the way they 'raised' me. My family is religious and they were not that serious but my parents took it far. Like I don't hate the idea of believing in a certain religion or god. But the way they press it onto me and my sister are a bit annoying somewhat.
They said: ' You don't need to feel pressured but we 'hope' you will follow what we do. ' But then make us learn more about it. I don't hate it, but no matter what we do or talk about it comes back into the topic of needing to believe in the religion that they do. It's basically false hope, is it not?
They made rules in the house. Like anybody would have that, but it is quite extreme.
The rules went like this:
1. Do not go on the internet and watch anything related to magic and be as realistic as possible
2. Do not listen to music with anything related to anything except religious music
3. Do not play at someone's house. Always invite them to our house.
4. Always read the bible in the morning and at night.
5. Pray every day.
Just to explain they are Christians. I don't hate them or anything. I don't have hate for what people want to believe.
I just barely can do anything without being scolded. Like on this site I was invited to a group chat and my mom decided to delete it and unfollow all of the people I follow on Instagram and such. She monitors everything. When I go and shower and leave my phone and laptop open she checks my history and everything I've done. Saying that the same gender loving each other is a 'sin'. Like couldn't she just leave me alone? I am not bothering her with her work or what so ever. I am not involved with dangerous stuff. I stopped going outside, so I stayed inside. And I am doing something 'productive. She stills gets mad. I am just sitting in my room and being quiet and not bothering anybody. Gosh, it sounds like my breathing just annoys her.
I understand that parents want their children to grow up, be good people, and not get involved with negative things. But is it that bad what I am doing. Not believing in god? Doing things 'against the will of god'.
Yeah, maybe I already know things that are not appropriate for my age. But I am doing my best at school, at home and well the only problem is my social life but whatever. I am doing nothing wrong and they kept scolding me for being in front of my computer and doing 'sinful' things.
The thought of 'suicide' has crossed my mind a lot these days. And I think the reason that I have not done so is that, well because they said that God has given you life and so you should that care of it. Basically, it is saying it is a 'sin'. And I don't want to add another sin into the list of sins that I have done.
See it is as if they pressed damned information in me. No matter what I do it just tells me in my head 'it is a sin', 'god is disappointed in you, and 'you are a sinner'. Okay, let's say the bible is true. Can I just choose to ignore it? Everybody has their own beliefs do they not?
What they have been telling me is that I am a sinner and that I should've died. My self-esteem and confidence that I have been building up just crumble down. It hurts. They keep telling me after our conversations that I should think this through and believe it quickly. Like our conversations is not normal anymore. I can't even crack a joke and them lecturing me.
Yeah, I was a pretty sociable person, but now I am depressed and having social anxiety. They literally said 'depression my ass, where? I don't see it'. My pride and everything just breaks apart and they kept telling me that maybe if I believed I wouldn't have been this sad.
What should I do? Should I just give up everything? Like not su*cide but like just rebel against them and not follow what they say. But at the same time I don't want to because if I rebel against them they will take everything away, starting from social media and then friends. Basically just studying. It's like giving up my freedom to protect my freedom.
What's your opinion about it?
P.S
Thank you for taking your time to read it. (⌒▽⌒)
Hope you have a wonderful day (▰˘◡˘▰)
Honestly, I don't necessarily hate nor love my parents. They all just feel distant to me.
I'm not the type to hold deep grudges. Especially against my parents. But I just felt the need to after the way they 'raised' me. My family is religious and they were not that serious but my parents took it far. Like I don't hate the idea of believing in a certain religion or god. But the way they press it onto me and my sister are a bit annoying somewhat.
They said: ' You don't need to feel pressured but we 'hope' you will follow what we do. ' But then make us learn more about it. I don't hate it, but no matter what we do or talk about it comes back into the topic of needing to believe in the religion that they do. It's basically false hope, is it not?
They made rules in the house. Like anybody would have that, but it is quite extreme.
The rules went like this:
1. Do not go on the internet and watch anything related to magic and be as realistic as possible
2. Do not listen to music with anything related to anything except religious music
3. Do not play at someone's house. Always invite them to our house.
4. Always read the bible in the morning and at night.
5. Pray every day.
Just to explain they are Christians. I don't hate them or anything. I don't have hate for what people want to believe.
I just barely can do anything without being scolded. Like on this site I was invited to a group chat and my mom decided to delete it and unfollow all of the people I follow on Instagram and such. She monitors everything. When I go and shower and leave my phone and laptop open she checks my history and everything I've done. Saying that the same gender loving each other is a 'sin'. Like couldn't she just leave me alone? I am not bothering her with her work or what so ever. I am not involved with dangerous stuff. I stopped going outside, so I stayed inside. And I am doing something 'productive. She stills gets mad. I am just sitting in my room and being quiet and not bothering anybody. Gosh, it sounds like my breathing just annoys her.
I understand that parents want their children to grow up, be good people, and not get involved with negative things. But is it that bad what I am doing. Not believing in god? Doing things 'against the will of god'.
Yeah, maybe I already know things that are not appropriate for my age. But I am doing my best at school, at home and well the only problem is my social life but whatever. I am doing nothing wrong and they kept scolding me for being in front of my computer and doing 'sinful' things.
The thought of 'suicide' has crossed my mind a lot these days. And I think the reason that I have not done so is that, well because they said that God has given you life and so you should that care of it. Basically, it is saying it is a 'sin'. And I don't want to add another sin into the list of sins that I have done.
See it is as if they pressed damned information in me. No matter what I do it just tells me in my head 'it is a sin', 'god is disappointed in you, and 'you are a sinner'. Okay, let's say the bible is true. Can I just choose to ignore it? Everybody has their own beliefs do they not?
What they have been telling me is that I am a sinner and that I should've died. My self-esteem and confidence that I have been building up just crumble down. It hurts. They keep telling me after our conversations that I should think this through and believe it quickly. Like our conversations is not normal anymore. I can't even crack a joke and them lecturing me.
Yeah, I was a pretty sociable person, but now I am depressed and having social anxiety. They literally said 'depression my ass, where? I don't see it'. My pride and everything just breaks apart and they kept telling me that maybe if I believed I wouldn't have been this sad.
What should I do? Should I just give up everything? Like not su*cide but like just rebel against them and not follow what they say. But at the same time I don't want to because if I rebel against them they will take everything away, starting from social media and then friends. Basically just studying. It's like giving up my freedom to protect my freedom.
What's your opinion about it?
P.S
Thank you for taking your time to read it. (⌒▽⌒)
Hope you have a wonderful day (▰˘◡˘▰)
about question
For those that read manga/hwa/hua that deal with debutante balls/coming of age balls, what ages are the participants? I.e. the girls and boys the ball is for. I forget the ages. (￣∇￣") ╮(￣▽￣)╭
about first kiss
i made a discord server and im bad with bots i need mods that can set up bots for me https://discord.gg/avBsuckx
