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Ah my so very flawed Crumpet so clearly clings on ‘The Knife’ Heejae as if it’s a lifeline. Well it is true in his case since Crouton bases his whole life mission on opposing Heejae: quitting piano, creating his own agency, convincing other students to leave all to prove that Heejae’s very soul is wrong. He may seem diametrically opposed to Heejae’s teachings by being a supportive conductor whose role is help guide an ochestra rather than take center stage overwhelming the ensemble like Heejae while positioning himself as a friendly and relatable mentor figure but ironically both Compton and Heejae aim for the same purpose. They are both chasing a shadow of someone. For the professor its the manager and for the conductor its Heejae himself. Its only the wrapping that differs as Heejae wants to appear as the knife as a defense mechanism for his abandonment issues while Compton is compulsively people pleasing and manipulative as to never appear as the bad guy due to his trauma of Heejae’s pride in being a knife, carving the soul out of his students. Compton despises the pain inflicted by Heejae but because Compton only saw Heejae’s abrasive side he doesn’t understand anything beyond that because Heejae never allowed him to left chasing after his own image of Heejae that can never be reconciled with the human Heejae who loves Garam. But hate is not the opposite of love, indifference is and Compton is anything but indifferent. He so deeply wants to prove Heejae wrong, to keep him as a lonely knife that can only care for music by driving away his students just like how Heejae drove him away because if Heejae is able to love then why didn’t he love Compton. Was he not good enough? He’s so insecure but tries so hard to project confidence because he never truly recovered from Heejae’s abuse. He just wants to appear that way, to gain control of others so he can have some semblance of control over his own heart. I love the author so much because they so delicately depict how different people may react to similar traumatic events; some spiral for a long time then find their peace like Walter, others may pick themselves up gradually in the background while trying to continue their normal life like Yerim, while Compton pretends he never needed to recover therefore he never did.

Now he faces his hardest obstacle yet that goes against everything he’s ever believed in: Garam’s love. Someone who can love the professor despite, or in Garam’s case because of the professor’s lonely, prickly nature that manifests as a knife to push away people. Where he would usually acts gently supportive now he forcefully comes onto Garam, pushing him to break just like the old Heejae just to achieve his goal of chasing after his Heejae, ‘The Knife.’ He would use his own body, his symphony players, even become the person he despises yet yearns for to convince Garam to leave all to satisfy that he was right. That the professor is incapable of love. He’s forever stuck in the past and fiercely tries to keep it that way as to validate his feelings on Heejae. After all if your abuser that you love is seemingly suddenly everything you desperately wanted because of someone other than you how would you feel? Not to excuse bis actions, but they make so much sense for the character. I still want to (lovingly I swear) shake him like shaking baby syndrome though.

Hear me out, instead of side stories showing Garam with other guys in the story I propose: Compton/Walter. Lord knows Garam and Heejae are possessive as hell for each other and are more likely to skin their respective dick/anus then let them sleep with other men. I know this not on the offcl site and I don’t even know Korean but I need the author-nim to make a side story starring Walter and Compton because they can commiserate and trauma bond over their shared hatred of Heejae together while having hotgirl sex. I can smell the potential and mentally unstable kinky dynamic from here and I slobber like a rabid dog waiting for its next victim. Someone please tell me they see the vision and I am not turning crazy.

Man Clarens I see those eyes, you are a fellow shipper aren’t you. Clarens was never interested in the human side of Heejae but the Maestro she saw him as which is why Clarens was never really jealous or seemed to desperately want Heejae as much as Garam. The real person who drove this conflict between Garam and Clarens was Heejae’s fear of being vulnerable with someone else and having them leave him again because Garam, unlike Clarens, cares for Heejae just like the manager did which was why Heejae didn’t fear being intimate with Clarens as he did with Garam.

Talking about the manager I agree with the commentor who says Heejae isn’t in love with him as much as the manager being a point of trauma which caused him to go on a warpath polishing a gem that could understand him. The manager silhouette Heejae sees in Garam is only there to remind Heejae that he must never let go of what he deems precious. Heejae subconsciously blames himself for what happened to the manager which is why he sees himself as a knife, someone who can only hurt and push away people. He sees people who are warm and welcoming as the light (ie manager and Garam) while himself as a shadow which is why he past students’ sound was always calming like Garam’s and Walter’s old sound. This prevents himself from seeing how much warmer he has become due to Garam and how much colder Garam is and will probably become in order to play Rachiminoff. Afterall Rachiminoff in Heejae’s words is all about ‘struggle.’ Now if only Heejae got over his abandonment issues left unresolved due to the manager’s death and finally become a kinky sadistic unc versus abusive sadistic unc in which Garam is always having to watch the emotions of and regulate (one of the traits abused victims tend to have as well as being forced to be dependent and always having to ask permission from their abuser).

Also check the author twitter to see drawings of Garam and Heejae in different aus like both of them as school boys or adult Garam meeting child Heejae (btw it seems Heejae always had those gaunt ass cheekbones, it isnt because hes middle aged). I need someone to fangirl/fanboy/fanwhomever cause none of my irl friends read this.

I have no words.

I lied. I have much to say to this rather flabbergasting one shot.

I think I understand the mangaka‘s intention with them fucking in the storm to show that they are unashamed and steadfast in their selves and choices. This especially applies to Jun who is still young student (just how old is Yoichi, honestly he’s probably a pedophile), unsure, and insecure in his relationship with Yoichi. So Yoichi instead encourages Jun to confront his fears by unabashedly having sex in a typhoon. The typhoon plays dual roles as a test of courage for the couple and shows how their passion is like a force of nature reflecting the weather, but the typhoon is also shielding them from onlookers that could hurt Jun due to everyone knowing each other in his hometown (cause no sane person is going to the middle of nowhere during a typhoon). As many sane commenters have said they could’ve had sex in the car instead but that detracts from meaning of having sex outside during a storm as car sex’s connotation is usually people trying to hide the fact that they are having sex treating it as a shameful act while Yoichi is trying to encourage Jun to let loose.

Still, while I understand the logic, the story is so nonsensical and out of pocket even with context and what doesn’t help is the manga cover which made me first think that this was a gag manga. First is the disturbing notion that Yoichi is likely grooming Jun considering their age difference and creepily how many times Yoichi emphasizes on Jun’s inexperience. Second, there are so many ways other ways that Yoichi could’ve used to encourage Jun, like I don’t know… talking? Taking it slow? Reassuring him consistently? Not become an exhibitionist during a fucking typhoon. And their semen just flying around in the wind, I know it’s trying to emphasize their elation, their synchronization, and how much they became like the typhoon, but all I could’ve thought was the chances of their own cum flying straight to their eyes. I just fucking can’t with this.

For my own sanity I am going to think the mangaka created this as a piece of satire, hence why the ridiculous manga cover, that is supposed to be a coming of age one shot that is suppose to be rather wild and not to be taken seriously to have readers take solace in the absurdity while relating to the grounded worries (of insecurity, growing up, and gaining self confidence despite unaccepting communities. Not the typhoon sex, though if you want to then you do you. I’ll judge but I doubt that’ll stop a specimen like yourself. Just make sure you don’t traumatize the children) that Jun experiences. As to explain the finding “solace in the absurdity” (I didn’t know how to word it better) I think the bizarreness in the story reflects how difficult and overwhelming such feelings are despite it being a common presence in our lives. Having our emotions being portrayed in such an explicit and expressive manner can comfort us validating the impact of such life changing experiences (though hopefully in a less exhibitionist manner) as while most life lessons seem banal on the outside to us personally they are fundamental to our existence and just as an emotional rollercoaster as two idiots having sex outside during a typhoon.

I know the story doesn’t have a second lead since Danoh and Haru are ride or die, but he just exudes second lead syndrome. So I am begging on my knees saying please please please creator you must make Dowha the main character of a fluffy slice of life story where he could be happy and not be used a plot device to bring suffering to the person he loved most by simply existing. Also let Saheon (our squid fairy) be happy too. Instead on having just squid fairy be the only reoccurring character in this author’s story let his lover (I forgot your name sorry, though maybe author intentionally never revealed it) and him be that reoccurring odd couple that says a few meta and out of context words now and then. Screw all that let every character that appears throughout the story be happy. Dowha and Jihan (girlie who bestie with Judan and unrequited love for lawn mower hair Namjoo) should’ve paired up so they can find their own love. It was a shame that more female characters didn’t gain awareness like Dowha. I’m still conflicted on Haru though, I love the idea of a nameless extra figthing for their love and place in the world but he also seems like more a plot device than an actual person. It was only by contrivance that Danoh found him to be the cause of her heart beating rather than something like an event causing them to be drawn to one another. If Haru wasn’t completely dependent on Danoh to gain a sense of self of belonging then I think I would have enjoyed their relationship more. But what it turned out to be was that the only way Haru could feel like a person was Danoh cause she literally was his “whole world” as without her interacting with him, Haru would go back to being a nameless lost npc like the rest of the people throughout the comic. And because of that Haru’s whole personality was about Danoh and being in love with her and I loved how stubbornly he held on to his affection, him wanting to find belonging, and his self sacrificing gentleness but without Danoh he pretty much a nothing burger personality wise. I just wish they gave more autonomy to Haru and have his on life seperate from Danoh as he literally got his name from Danoh, but that would play against the setting of this comic. I just think with how the scenario is set up a nameless extra like him is too powerless and too dependent on Danoh to make up his character. So my thoughts basically amount to that Haru is a great idea but in practice needed more. I think if the main message and general story beats could have been achieved if Donah were to be paired up with any other character the comic creator named as the other character would, yknow, have their character, personality, and motives rather than a Haru who dependent on Danoh, like a follower of a god, to drive his actions. I think Dowha would have fit nicely mainly cause he is an interesting character, in the beginning he was setted up to be the ml to our fl Danoh (well more like baited for Haru), not a bitch like Kyung, and I just wanted him to get his deserved happy ending.

Bro bro bro I was all for the buff bottom and bunny top, but not like this T-T Why is Ain such a fuckin black flag. Someone tell me why does Michelle’s father exist. Just smite him already, he takes too much bandwidth and hatred for the story to the point overshadowing the main characters for me. This could’ve been a healing plot with gentle doormat top helping the traumatized bottom to move past the people who’ve hurt them in the past and become happy together. But nooooo Ain just has to drag innocent Michelle into this and instead of focusing on the rest of his shitty family. Theres no need to hurt Michelle, I’m sure there are others ways to hook, line, and sinker everyone but Michele to the 9th circle of hell where they belong so they can be chewed up eternally by satan’s stinky yucky breath. I just wanted cute and wholesome (following the typical plots of the artist’s past stories) size difference romance not a whole psychological thriller revenge plot which the innocent twink top gets drugged, gaslighted, and raped. This is not what I meant when I said I didn't want bottoms to not be raped…