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I just wanna say that im doing this cause I am just slowly losing it and have thought about this for YEARS now, but what I saw today confirmed everything I needed to know.

im not lonely, I have friends but I never had a best friend, I never had a friend they called me 'their number one' I have always been the floater friend, the backup, the boring one, the one with strict parents, the wanna be. Literally everything but what I wanted to be.

I graduated from high school in December and university was in march, from those 3 months, I had hung out once, and it was a childhood friend who suddenly remembered me cause her own best friend turned out to be shit. Since then I haven't hung out with her (it was in feb) We barely message and she has her own group of people, so I don't push myself onto her. We drifted because after primary school, we both went to different schools, so it made sense at the end.

However, the friends I made in my own school, it's a kinda big group? mainly 7 girls, but I had my own friend, but I noticed within the last two years, she slowly distanced herself from me, like she was preparing to leave the moment we graduate. And I was right, she stopped talking to me, barely; because I asked to hang out and she gave me an open answer. Since then nothing.

the group Im friend with, has their own GC without me, and always plans things without ever telling me. I always made excuses in my head saying, 'oh its because of this or this'

They still talk to me, but it's like it's almost out of pity? they don't actually like me for being me. Why is it when I want a friend to call my own, they never want the same for me. Uni is worse too, they don't want a best friend or a life friend, they just want a uni friend, a classmate, nothing more nothing less.

I hate this, am I doing something wrong? I try my best with everything, I plan hangouts, I try to message everyday, I wish I can just have a friend that isn't just a 'friend' but someone I can call if something good happens in my life, or when I have a birthday, they'll come without expectation.

I tried making a birthday 3 times (16,17,18) but most bailed on me, saying they're busy. And I cried on those years. Im so sick of this, am I the problem? please, I sometimes feel so alone in my own world, being alone is great sometimes but its a pain most of the time, I missed my teenage life and now im young adult too, why can't I just have something for myself for once

I have always been a loner since I was young, I never made friends, I didn't talk until I was in school, I always was an anxious kid. I feel like my mum is my only friend but then again, it's feel like she loves me as her kid and not for me.

im sorry for this stupid rant, I needed this off my chest. its going to be so cringe in a day or two.

Corrupt government, useless big projects, free (pay with people taxes) healthy food that ended up with massive poisoning, unemployment everywhere, deforestation for palm tree almost everywhere, ruining ecosystem for mining, economy collapse, inflation rate is up, everything is getting expensive, but the gov paying huge amount of people (buzzers) to support every dumb decision of that stupid ahh president. And what's the president u may ask? He's having a world tour. He doesn't gives a shit about his county, instead trying to find his way smooching trump to gain power or sum shit.
Yes I'm ranting here because social media controlled by gov and buzzers.

Idk for me it has to be a moody seaside town, with creepy lighthouses and maritime ghost stories, ghost ships sirens and allat

Is George Washington a celebrity? Cuz i don't like him.

me personally i just choose whoever i like the best which is mostly the uke lol

Serious replies only, please. Help a girl out.

Also I'm trying to rizz up girls not dudes, so if any of you have advice on how to get girls specifically to like me, lemme know.

Trying to stop being a bum and to learn a lot of things so I can finally become a useful member of society, so name as many as you can.

I think cooking is the most important one ngl, and no I can't cook. I'll start learning though, for real.

But like years later, when you're both single and they actually felt guilty about cheating on you and promise not to cheat on you ever again? Personally I wouldn't.

My mother's uncle murdered his wife and then killed himself, and my father's grandfather went to jail for theft. Why is my family so fucked bro.

I am TERRIFIED of insects, so any bug I come across I kill. If it's a too big or too scary fucker I have to ask my family to do it for me, and I make sure they actually kill them instead of letting them out.

How about you?

I remember back when the "hear me out" cake trend was popular, some people used to add certain numbers like 4 or 7 as their hear me outs, so how about a country?

And I don't mean their humanised version like Hetalia's characters or whatever, I mean the actual geographical shape of theirs on maps and stuff.

Mine's Cuba probably.

I'm watching the Evan Myers videos on YouTube and it reminded me of how much I love creepypastas

Idk why I'm suddenly thinking of this, but I'm curious if anyone else has felt this way. When I get close to someone enough, I want to touch them not sexually but I want to poke and prod and caress and smack and push and pull, it's kind of a problem I can break boundaries if I wasn't cognizant of myself. I used to just hit people all the time when I was a little kid, obviously I would get in trouble but I never felt guilty, its just a super strong urge. It's similar to cuteness aggression I guess, though I've felt that separately. I'm also not a sadist I don't think.
So i'm jus curious if any other of u freaks love to bother people you're super close with.

So Im gonna ask my crush out and if he says yes Im changing my Pfp to yuta (jjk) and if he rejects me my pfp will be that random girl crying from that one manga. Wish me luck (pls i need it) Also if he does say yes i will tell u guys

So does anyone knows stories where they like don't interact with each other at school but are actually fuck buddies? Even better if they're rivals, or popular x outcast, kind of stuff.

i typed in the URL to read gachiakuta and lo and behold, the site was blocked, the reason: pornography. My heart literally skipped a beat and i closed the tab omg this is so embarrassing. How do they even know that?? I was using this site on my school wifi with no issues until now - and no i didnt read yaoi on my school wifi...

Anything similar to these pls help :3
-All night forever
-charlies inferno
-I wanna be your boyfriend
-Basics in behavior
-love taste
-I heart you
-Psycho teddy
-Luna de plata

the fl is a brunette and has green eyes and the ml is a prince and has blonde hair. So the ml is actually the 2nd ml in a novel and dies (not completely sure)after falling in love with the og fl. The ML's younger sister is a transmigrator and wants to save her brother and forces him to meet with the 2nd fl in the novel. She then forces her younger brother to go on a hunger strike and threatens ml that she will jump out of the building if they don't get engaged with each other. Its an ongoing manhwa so I wanted to know how far the manhwa has progressed until now and just in case you misunderstood, the sister is not the main character