Omg there are genuinely no Indian MCs in BL. Prolly cuz most (I say MOST NOT ALL and maybe even SOME) are racist asf. Srsly idk what's up with racism in East Asian culture but it's like weird as hell. Honestly racism is seriously stupid, just because sm1 else had more melanin than others doesn't mean that they are less worthy of respect than others. Well I could go on a whole rant about racism in the manhwa community but this would be rlly long. I wanna see an Indian MC like DJ from Superfish. Like I like how they do it, cuz they just make it so natural. Indian culture is shown throughout and I like that. I was literally going crazy the whole time. Now I do understand Shurakah from BOTWN has some Indian culture woven through his character, and he's brown skinned. But I feel like he's more Middle Eastern. And also it's like super exaggerated. But I mean it did take place in the past though, royalty was glamorous back then. I have heard the story was orientalistic though. Now I don't exactly understand much about it and I haven't found many issues. Please educate me about the topic in the comments so I won't offend anyone in the future . I'd like it very much to be like Superfish like how DJ is Indian, I want a story like that. If u have recs pls comment, if u don't u can talk about smth else. And if u don't want to comment that's ok! U can like or dislike. Have a nice day
Bc authors of bl are mostly Japanese and Korean ... So they'll used the settings of what they know more... There's a lot of controversy if they made a setting they don't know much example (a Korean author tried to use a Chinese setting and some of the information is wrong and misleading) the people who read the story and know/notice the wrong information they will literally tear apart the author for using a wrong information and saying that the author didn't research much before writing it ..
And it's easier to write a story when the setting is something you can easily imagine and always see..
I definitely don't want them to draw Indian characters. I mean they're not Indian. They can't do justice to the figures, I feel. Though there are a few stories in Old mangas Inhabe noticed them having Indian characters.
So what's wrong with Indians... do you not want them to draw people of color as well?
Ppl lowkey frying u but ur right the lack of representation is insane. Not to mention in most bls western culture is often recedepacted we see the setting talking place in foreign countries but half of the characters are eaither white or Korean. Ppl are forgeting korea is racist as fuck
I just wrote they can't do justice to them.
Yh u are right about that I totally agree but I mean sometimes it gets to a point where they don't research about a certain thing that is kinda incredibly offensive and like wildly known for being offensive. Perfect example is in Song of the Wasteland when the author like deadass just made the slave character say "I'm your humble slave, master." And also I feel like if ppl are going to make stories set in another country they should put in the effort to be accurate. Like me personally I think it's lazy to not put in the effort. And also when I meant that I saw a lot of racism in manhwas I don't mean by the setting, I mean by how they treat the darker color skin characters by making them "beastly" and "primal." And also making them ashy asf for some reason just like rlly dirty and stuff. Like Predatory Marriage kinda has those vibes. I also kind of feel like if you CHOSE to make a person of color character you should try to research their background, sometimes not only to avoid racism but also inaccuracies . I feel like when these authors choose to make a POC but they're not willing to research their background, they shouldn't make the characters in the first place, because even though it may seem small it contributed to a bigger problem. This is just my take on it tho, like I get it we all have different opinions and stuff. Have a nice day tho!
I'm shitty at debate I'm sorry But yes bro oml I don't get why ppl r opposing LITERAL RACISM. Like Korea is just a plain mess tbh, they hate everything . And I am not being racist to Koreans, Korean culture is beautiful and amazing. But right now, the bullying and racist culture is insane. I genuinely hope ppl there r doing alright, and the government has gotta do smth about this.
Ur half right and half wrong. Like if authors aren't gonna put in the work to actually make Indian characters accurately Indian, they shouldn't make Indian characters period . It's just the way u kinda worded it was a little weird, but that is totally fine like everyone messes up things. I just hope authors start actually wanting to put in the work to make Indian characters accurately Indian and making PEAK and not being racist
Haha that's what I thought but I think they mean authors shouldn't make Indian characters if they don't do it right
Superfish?
Its not about culture all they have to do is draw a brown person weather its a side character or main. Indian people dont revolve around Indian culture their just themselves. What's there to make right?
It's just I have seen the few mangas portray gods in a weird way especially Vishnu. As a person who separates fiction usually from religion I didn't mind at first, but slowly it kind of weirded me out the way They were drawn. I don't remember exactly which one it was. And it has been years but all the knowledge they get about My country is just slumdog.millionaire and Few bollywood movies. And knowing how inherently racist they're I was not really willing maybe like 30%. But I'm sure there might be authors who'll do proper research and Draw without any prejudice. I'm excited to see if it ever does happen though.
Wdym a brown person? India is not just about skin colour and only brown people don't live here? And not every brown person is Indian. Why wouldn't anyone want their culture aspect to be drawn properly? Are you ignorant or what? You're from USA. Why are you arguing on what Indian representation should be with an Indian person?
Im indian myself and all im saying is authors dont have to do the research about Indian culture all they have to do is draw a brown person. And ur right not every brown person is Indian but Indians are brown people.
Nowhere did I deny that Indian people are brown. Ofcourse the converse isn't true. India is full of many complexions and facial features. Also I'm sorry but you have been passive aggressive since the beginning when I have been calmly explaining my view. If you didn't agree just explain calmly and state why you don't agree. Anyway I don't want to converse with you further.
There is barely any rep of brown culture in manga/manhwa. I understand Indian people don't revolve about their culture, but I mean their culture barely even gets mentioned. If you've read Superfish on Webtoon you'll see that like Dhananjay doesn't refer to himself as Indian, it's kinda portrayed in the setting and that's what I like. He serves Superfish chai with biscuits, his family photos have him in traditional Indian wear, his name is literally very Desi. Like i was personality asking for Indian Culture involved too. So I don't think u got the memo a little that's ok to misunderstand. But to make it clear I was asking for recs with Indian culture.
Omg u clocked them go girl or boy or any other gender you view yourself as! I can't believe another Indian just decides to be racist to their own culture. Like as an Indian too I was so confused
Im not saying Indian culture shouldn't be represented i js see people talking about how indians cant be put into manhwas because Korean authors dont understand or aren't familiar with the culture so I was just saying how even if they dont know anything about the culture Indian people could sitll be represented
To make any character you would kinda need to research about their ethnicity? How would you know if they're Indian though? There are many different types of brown ppl out there, anyone who is dark skinned isn't just automatically Indian. Even if the roles were reversed the same points would apply.
By mentioning it in the story, I only said that cus somone was talking about research not being accurate
Hello to any lesbians from a fellow member I hope u r having a great life. I hope u get a girlfriend in the future if u want one, or if u alr have one I hope u guys are happy! If u read Yuri, send me ur Yuri recs pls
Im half lesbian, do i deserve that greeting? LMAO i wish you're happy with your life too, with or without gf.
This is my favourite stories hehehe https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/i_favor_the_villainess/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_skirt_sings_at_the_landing/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/friend_girl_friend/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_story_of_a_person_who_grew_a_flower/
Bro ofc u deserve the greeting, it's totally fine!!! Thank u 4 the peak Yuri recs btw
Welcemmmmm (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ happy reading
Yayy
I want obsessive dominating and powerful Ukes who are buff ash and either equal to or (preferably) buffer than Seme. Also I wanna see the uke like head over heels for the uke. Also I want like a full blown psychological type story, where they have unhealthy behaviors and thoughts. Maybe a self depricating seme. Maybe smth similar to Die in My Arms and The Third Decade (if u haven't read then u should read them they r so good). Also no rape pls or anything similar like dubcon, non-con, sexual assault/harassment. I would mention i would like it to be like Unchanged Man but I mean, there is rape involved so I don't want that aspect. I love the plot and psychological aspect tho, it's very very well written. Like just skip over some of the smut (though maybe there will be important stuff. If u give recs thank u very much I will give kisses. U aren't obligated to tho, it's ur life. But have a great day to all of u
camping here for recs tooლ(´ڡ`ლ) cuz why are do BLs always portray ukes as being lanky and feminine like damn fetish much. Gonna add those two recs to my list now
black mirror is a good one
yh fr. I mean feminine Ukes are fine, like no hate, but when they portray them as small and childish and stupid ASF that's when I irritated asf
Ooh I've been wanting to read that one cuz I was letting it kinda marinate in my lists for a while but I think I may read it cuz I've lwk been desperate on reading stuff like Die In My Arms
You should they are equally obsessed with each other and the plot is good also if you wanna read like unhinged uke that’s obsessed with the seme red mansion is good too but the uke is not buff or anything.
Yh lwk I saw Red Mansion and like I don't like how the uke looks I'm sorry I don't like those kind of twinks with no meat on their bones just because it terrified me when the MLs dick is bigger than their whole body. So I think I'm a little terrified to read Red Mansion but thank u for that rec anyways
I finished reading Black Mirror and I love u sm!! I haven't binged smth in a day in so long, and they r just so perfect for each other. The plot twist didn't rlly faze me as much tho cuz I was spoiled a little
I’m so glad you liked it(≧∀≦)
I yearn for that person who replied I want to read what they say. It's like being left on a fucked up cliffhanger but u never get to know what happens ever. This is like some yaoi where the bf just never comes back and MC doesn't know where he is and he'll never meet him ever again. Kinda reminds me of your name engraved herin. Go watch that. But to the person i accidentally muted, just so u know I want u bro. Cuz u took the time to read through my preferences on yaoi and gave me recs
girl u can check in ur own profile under topics to see ur previous comments
I will try but other ppl on Mangago said there was no way to find out responses uve muted. But I hope ur method works
Noo it didn't work I muted a reply from my own question that I asked, not in a manga topic tho. But thank u for the advice tho I rlly appreciate it
really when i went to ur page i did see ur question asking for reccs, i saw it a few scroll ago as well, i didnt see any response tho perhaps u are mentioning a different question?
maybe u can repost that same comment so it stays at the top
Check ur safari(?)/google history
No it was this one cuz I saw sm1 commented on it and I wanted to read it but I pressed mute on accident. I may be hallucinating it or I'm bad at technology
I checked my timeline to that post and I didnt see any comment. Well now it has a comment but that is a different person than the previous one. Lolol sorry I'm kinda stupid so I may be taking ur instructions the wrong way and I am terribly sorry. Thank u for the instructions tho
I checked and it didn't pop up. Prolly cuz immediately when the notification happened I went to click it and accidentally pressed mute. Thank u for the advice tho
I NEED a yaoi where they are just so in love and cute but at the same time the Uke is actually madly obsessed with the Seme, like he's so powerful and crazy like he isn't weak in any shape or form (cuz most yaois I stumble across make the uke weak ASF) and the Uke has to be dominant during sex (if u give me a rec with sex but idc if it has sex or not). Like they need to ragebait the Seme and seme has to be this tsundere crash out who always gets ragebaited but knows he's just gonna forgive uke anyways cuz he's that down bad.
And I also want it to have a good plot and also not shadow away side characters or make their personalities just about the MCs. Like they gotta have their own character for themselves and should be treated like a character rather than just boosters for the MCs plot or smth. I luv my side characters and they deserve love too.
The plot can be either modern, fantasy, historic, whatever. I don't mind what verse it is, but maybe lay off the omegaverse unless it's absolutely life-changing
Also I am very picky with appearances and they just gotta look like 2 dudes. Or better yet, the uke is buff and cool and the Seme is like average build. Or they can both be average build. I don't wanna see a twink x buff and twink is the bottom.
If u want some examples of how I like the personality of the uke, I want them like Ji Minyoung from Die in My Arms or like the uke from Groupie Sweety (btw they're literal peak go read both of them).
Semes gotta be like Park Jungcheol from Die in My Arms and the Seme from Groupie Sweety (haha can u tell I love them). Honorable mention for Uyun from One Room TA
I like how One Room TA treats their side characters, so is want it to kinda be like that.
Also I want Uke to be older or the same age as Seme.
It doesn't have to fit all these but I'd prefer if it did and I am grateful for all the recs u give me. I have a very picky taste so apologies for that.
Btw idk if I need to mention it but I will - I don't want rape/non-con, Dub-con, or sexual assault/harassment or anything fitting that in my yaois. Including somno and maybe drunken sex. I don't want any rape jokes included and I don't want anything offensive included. It's fine if u like that I mean I will judge but I won't harass you, but don't give it to me pls
Thank u again if u comment. Thank u if u read it and just didn't have any recs or ur bored scrolling thru questions (I do that too lol). I don't wanna pressure u into commenting
Omg I accidentally muted sm1 who responded pls text me again
That was too long for a decription of a rec. Bit I just want to share, you know that feeling that you feel like you read something like the one you're asking but it's already buried whitin your soul and can't remember? Oh, well good luck ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧
Sorry I am just so picky with my BL like I wanna find new ones that are actually life changing and peak cuz I have to wait ages for updates
Literally there is no good yaoi now, why are these authors just popping out with straight bullshit and fans are EATING IT UP for some reason. Maybe I've been cursed with wokeness but literally some of the shit the ML/Top does would get you arrested in real life and they aren't even doing it for their partners benefit. The only good yaois I actively check every day to see if they update are like, One Room TA, Die in My Arms, A First of Summers (I'm getting kinda scared after that new episode tho, I am NOT gonna go through another miscommunication arc), Blossoms of the White Night (this one is a little iffy, but I'm giving it a chance cuz of the South Asian rep and art style), Happy Twogether, and I think that's it. If someone could recommend smth like One Room TA, Die in My Arms, or Happy Twogether, I will pay off your mortgage ,(ps like my bottoms buff and dominant
you should try reading yaoi mangas. i swear ive been there too before where i couldnt find any good bl (i hate heavy conflicts and SA). then i started reading bl mangas and i realise that the plot is a lot more interesting and there are lots of greenflags!
I respect your opinion, but be mindful that Yaoi has ALWAYS had these problems. This isn’t me glorifying the constant abuse and rape in certain stories, but this is unfortunately rather common in Yaoi. However, I wouldn’t say the qualities of Yaoi nowadays are significantly better or worse than in the past. Now, I find ways to avoid red flag stories like the plague anyway, but I MOSTLY read stories from 2022 onwards (according to the dates on this site, which may or may not be accurate) and I’m loving what I’m seeing. Not all of these stories are amazing or anything, but there are PLENTY of gems found in the “new-gen” Yaoi.
Unfortunately, we can’t do anything about fans eating up toxic Yaoi. As long as people want it, they’ll keep making stories like that. Still, thats a fault with Yaoi as a whole, not just the newer ones. As for the recommendations, I gotcha gang :3 (gimme a moment)
Yaoi mangas are soo peakkkk, u should deffo read Punks Triangle and Given. There's so much more but I lwk forgot the titles
Not specifically buff bottoms but these def arent slop, you mightve heard of them but its not just overrated/famous for no reason, they actually slap. I'd like it if you could show these some love as well
1. Regas
(dont let the reincarnation of the buff bottom discourage you, the mc was and is still a mastermind)
2. Follow the sheep into the abyss
(less chapters, upcoming peak marination worthy)
3. Dreaming of the dokkaebi
(i dont remember much, i just know i loved it sm)
4. Legroom/A room without window
5. When the killer falls in love
(the bottom you're looking for)
6. Our sunny days
(BUFF EX MILITARY SINGLE DADDY BOTTOM)
7. Winterfield
(also marination worthy, even better to read along with the updates)
8. Accidental baby/luharang
(youll love the bottom)
9. Secretive xx
(delicious mouth watering art, deserves more chaps)
10. Should i write you a love letter instead
(isekai, HILARIOUS)
11. Turning
(not mentioning this is a crime)
12. The hunter wants to live quietly/the hunter's gonna lay low
(Peak absolute mc, not overpowered, the perfect balance of action and angst, still ongoing but ive read the novel and the manhwa team has been doing well so far so i know the upcoming chaps/seasons gonna EAT)
I totally agree with you, like the yaoi genre itself is incredibly problematic, it's literally insane. I just wanted to talk about yaois coming out today or recent ones, and I am totally mindful of the ones in the past tho. I'm glad u brought this up cuz literally back then yaoi was way less woke than today. Like WAYYYY less. Literally one of my firsts was this 2018 manhua called The Silent Concubine and it was weirddd. But I mean yaois even older than that were much worse. Genuinely who approved the production of Super Lovers and Daikaichi. I haven't watched them but I heard of the fuckery that went on and I am not planning on watching them. I mean like it's ok to read toxic yaoi or whatever, but romanticizing their actions and treating the toxic one like some kawaii anime character who is all puppies and rainbows is just weirrddd. A good example can be Jooyeon from Reverse Thinking. Genuinely his actions were worse than Jiwoks and even if he was traumatized and had a bad past it still doesn't excuse the disgusting things he's done. Reverse Thinking is written alright in the aspect of plot, the smut is uncomfortable to read tho (obv). I do agree when u say there are plenty of yaoigems out there, me personally I just listed out stories that scratched the itch I needed. I want more stories to like, change my life. Yang Ill Woo and I literally changed me. I suggest u read it. Anyways, the popular yaois, tho, they are mostly (keyword MOSTLY) problematic ones. I mean take a look at Mr As Farm cuz that one had to put in a human rights violation warning. At least they did put out a warning, unlike Jinx and Reverse Thinking. Like everyone online will say the "3 most iconic and popular bottoms" are Taekjoo Leewon and Illay but they all were raped by the MLs. And Low Tide in Twilight gets a whole ass animation. Not to mention Painter of the Night got a whole song. Literally the faces of the yaoi community are always stories excusing rape, sexual assault, and abuse. That's what I've noticed mostly tho, but I do also see some green flag gems being rlly popular too (guildmember next door and nerd project). Oh my goodness I am so sorry this was so much text and apologies if I went off topic, rambled, or if anything didn't make sense. English is my first language but I'm hella bad at speaking it thank u for commenting tho, and THANK U FOR RECS!!!!
Stories like ORTA (some aren’t Yaoi):
I find it amusing that almost all of these reccos are black and blonde duos lmao (it’s a curse.)
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/homeless/ This story is probably the closest to the ORTA vibe out of all of my recommendations and probably one of the closest stories you’ll find like… ever. Homeless/No Home isn’t a Yaoi, though the two MAIN main characters develop a very close bond. Every character in this story starts out rather… rough around the edges. Some you may just outright hate! But as the story goes on, you’ll find yourself growing attached to all of these characters.
Homeless/No Home has the perfect balance between angst and comedy— though it’s more angst leaning compared to ORTA. I loved watching as these kids developed as people throughout all 270 chapters (GODDAMN). Progression in this story (kinda like in ORTA) isn’t linear. The characters (especially the main two) may end up improving and then going back to their old ways, but they all feel so incredibly human. If you read this story already, then reread it. That is a threat. (It may be my favorite manhwa of all time)
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/yang_il_woo_and_i/ An actual Yaoi this time! This story doesn’t really have the comedy of ORTA, but you get to watch the main characters become closer and more understanding to one another, just like in No Home or ORTA. The angst aspect, however, is DEFINITELY there. There’s a bit of a pattern of these blonde characters having traumatic backstories, but I won’t reveal it because spoilers. While Yang Ilwoo and I doesn’t have many chapters (24), it managed to make me grow deeply attached to these characters. They’re my children
Gelp… I was writing paragraphs describing stories like ORTA to recommend to you and Yang Ilwoo and I was one of them. I LOVE me some angst
OH MY GOODNESS I LOVE YOU!!! I have read Legroom, When the Killer Falls in Love (THIS IS SO PEAK I PUT IT IN MY STORIES I LIKED LIST and I forgot to mention it in stories I check for updates regularly) , Winterfield (I actually rlly RLLY!!! liked this one) and The Secretive XX. Im still reading Our Sunny Days, Accidental Baby (kinda send a little iffy to me but I'll give it a chance), Should I Write You A Love Letter Instead, and The Hunter Wants to Live Quietly. The rest I have not touched, but I will check it out! Thank u so much for the recs
Omg I was actually reading Homeless/No Home thinking it was a yaoi for all this time . Doesn't mean I won't stop reading it tho. I'm still only in the first chapters tho, I didn't make much progress
Loll it's totally ok Yang I'll Woo and I is smth that always should be reccomended. It's absolute peak. Like idk how author manage to capture a specific emotion and make the vibes stand out. Like they r so goated for that.
THIS!!! FINALLY SOMEONE SAID IT
Literally gotta dig through trash and dirt to find actual some gems
Btw the Blondie guy from No Home is like so funny too, I love him so much
Yess frfr cuz how come all the popular yaois are some slop. Be so fr rn Codename Anastasia, Passion, and Roses and Champagne should NOT be the "big 3 of yaoi." (literally why do ppl on tiktok keep saying it it's genuinely annoying ). We have to dig through genuine cowshit to find yaoigems. It's hard to catch a yaoigem under all of this yaoislop. We need to make an uprising and nominate One Room TA as the most popular yaoi and the greatest yaoi ever. Haha JK, but I mean... it's still literally the greatest yaoi ever made tho...
You might've mistaken my recs with the other person but im more than happy to be a part of yall's sharings
anyways you can consider my recs safe as well cause sa grape romantacizing black flag behaviours? I RUN AWAY AT ITS SLIGHTEST MENTION i havent and will never read stuff like jinx, reverse thinking, codename anastasia, roses and champagne, low tide in twilight, even painter of the night or pearl boy, some of the supposed ancient texts of yaoi
As mentioned by the other user, these problems have always been in yaoi, kinda shaped the yaoi industry back then tbh,and there are plenty of fans who want more of it, so the best i do is let them be them and cry while digging for bls i actually want to read lol
Also I remember reading The Silent Concubine omlmy younger self suffered so that my present self could stay safe and yes punk love triangle and yang ilwoo and i are absolute gems
Anyone who's already read legroom before me recommending it automatically enters my list of cool people
Maybe word count cut it off but i actually mentioned a warning for accidental baby bc of its dub con but i see you've read it already.
I wrote a whole ass para begging you to read legroon lolllllll it was embarassing how desperate i was but peak deserves love so i had to do it
Also if the long list wasnt too overwhelming for you, i always rec R2R:Run to Red bc of its insanely good art style and word building but left it out for you bc there's grooming and manipulation involved between the mc and a SIDE charac. The ml's adorable tho
I love him too! You’re gonna love the character development from everyone in this story
Oh sorry about mistaking the recs, it was like 3 am yesterday and I have bad vision. Omg another Silent Concubine reader I remember eating that shit up for no reason. I wasn't a seasoned yaoi reader back then, I was still a baby reader but I somehow managed to read 133 chapters of slop and the only reason I stopped was because the translation sucked. I don't care if ppl read their toxic yaoi, just don't bring me into it. Literally toxic yaoi is slop. Cuz reading it is so uncomfortable. Not to mention sometimes even "green flag yaoi" (Its in quotes cuz it isn't quite green flag) has SA and Rape but it's even MORE romanticized cuz it's "green flag." If someone says no.... YOU DON'T DO IT!!! If someone says stop.......YOU STOP!! If someone says slow down....YOU SLOW DOWN!!!!!!!! IT'S NOT THAT HARD TO LEARN OMG!!literally authors are tripping. I will always be a wokejoshi instead of a tradjoshi cuz all the traditional yaois are rapeslop. Well yaoi has always been like this and I myself can't change it, but I'd like to see more popular yaois that are actually good. And finally, another one who has read Punks Triangle and Yang Ill Woo and I
Omg no way thank u U r still cool for reccomending it to me too
Oh yh maybe some things were cut off but I mean I've said some things u were gonna say (like with Accidental Baby, I said it was a little iffy to me lol). Omg it's ok for the paragraph I would have loved to read it, and I would be writing a paragraph too cuz Legroom was so good. I read it like sometime last year at like 4 am (I remember vividly loll). I was getting weirded out at the first chapter and then it got so much better. Like it's absolute peak. My one and only problem is that I wished the ML didn't act so childish. I understand that he was kinda locked away from society to survive the apocalypse but I mean....idk still kinda weird to me. But he is such a cutie and they are such a power couple and it's LITERALLY SO GOOD!!! Also R2R I'm actually kinda excited cuz the name alr sounds good. The name reminded me of Steel Ball Run from JoJo's and I love JoJo's . Btw if you ever want to read/watch an action.....I suggest JoJo's bizarre adventure. It's my favorite anime, manga, it's literally my favorite everything. Artstyle is beautiful (esp in the newer chapters), worldbuilding is insane, and the plot is so entertaining and complex. Each part has a new main character and a new plot but they all still connect with each other. Steel Ball Run is especially good. It's getting animated rn actually. So if ur bored....go and read/watch this. Only if you want to tho. Thank u for the comment btw, I forgot to mention earlier but I liked hearing your thoughts and I loved the recs
Huh idk why it cut off all my other text. It's so annoying when it does that
Would I be a bad person if I've hurt someone? I mean, yeah I would be a bad person but would I always be a bad person, ykwim? Cuz I've been hurt many times in the past and I told myself I would never try to do something like that ever, but I've already hurt someone now. But I mean it was someone online who I only knew for a couple months. I think I've talked about this before but I can't remember. And does anyone know any therapy excersise or like any way to break the "generational curse" of bullying. Cuz I don't want to hurt anyone else like I've been hurt, since that bullying has almost driven me to a point where nobody would want to reach. Ok sorry if this was corny. I'd like to hear some of ur experiences and anything related. U don't have to tho, it's ur life
ya you would be a bad person, just stop bullying before it gets too intense and forget about it, that way the guilt is less
I've apologized about the situation and I think it is ok, and I might have felt less guilty but idk I think I might still be in some muddled thoughts. Tho thank u for the advice
Ok wait now that I'm thinking about my post it is lwk mad corny I am so sorry u had to read this
is all good, not corny at all LOL
Thank u
Tw: it's lwk boring
Ever since summer break happened I think I feel better about myself because of my lack of human interaction. Because when I'm with my friends/classmates/teachers I always think about whether they think I'm a stupid fucking chud cuz sometimes (every time) I feel like noise pollution when I try to talk to them and I doubt they even care. The only person I could think of who actually might want to know of my wellbeing is my widowed art teacher who I helped out whenever I was in my lunch break everyday because I didn't have any friends to hang out with because my old friend group wouldn't stop telling me to kill myself whenever I breathed in their presence. And my Ex gf constantly joked about how our relationship was never serious and that it was my fault we broke up (even thought she was the one who told me that she didn't like me anymore and I respected it....and I was always the one carrying the relationship and initiating everything, but I mean it was lwk corny so I wouldn't want her to not break up with me in any other reality). And my science teacher wouldn't stop fucking harassing me every single class and telling me I'm a failure. Ok I've reached the curse word limit, I'm gonna sound like I was written by Vivziepop if I say "fuck" again. Well I made new friends but I lwk might have a big fat lesbian crush on one of them (I've actually known them for a while) but at the same time I don't like her cuz my other friends don't like her but like she's also kinda rude sometimes. There is absolutely no purpose for this, u don't need to comment anything lol. If you have other experiences or just want to comment smth about urself pls do, I'd love to hear. Or not, it's ur life.
Tl;dr: My life is boring too and I'm happy
I'm a uni student. I'm lowk in a profession that makes it impossible to talk about my hobbies to other people (as a BL reader), in a uni that is definitely homophobic, but it's ok because I don't have to pay anything once I graduate nor do I have any friends here and that's ok. I don't have a romantic life because the people around me aren't that good and I never go out anyway (it's expensive). I live with my parents and younger siblings and make minimum wage. I'm saving up for a car and a month long vacation abroad to my homeland for after graduation. I'm currently taking summer classes to graduate early and preparing my resume until then.
Life's not perfect but I learned to not to gaf. I won't see the people I dislike in a couple of years and romance can wait after I have enough money to support myself and my family. By other's standards I'm probably a chud because I don't go outside but I'm perfectly content. My situation is not theirs anyway and there's a lot of life left to live. I have plans to travel once I'm older with my younger sisters who are genuinely closer than any friend I've ever had. I sometimes wonder if I should be living the internet life too but eh... don't wanna. Keep your peace, op.
Hi, I don't really know how to start this message, but I hope you are doing well. Your situation is far from boring, don't underestimate your feelings. Even if everyone makes you feel like you aren't worth it, you matter <3 We might not know each other, but I'm sending you love.
Your situation reminds me of my own. For years, I was part of a friend group who were (or so I thought) smarter than me. I was 'the idiot' of the group, the one with the lowest grades, the one who wasn't going to a prestigious school, etc. They underestimated me—with jokes, sure, but the intent was there. And that was *their* stupidity, *their* lack of intelligence. After a few years, I decided to cut ties with them; they were hurting me and I hadn't realized it, they were toxic.
Following that, I shut myself away. I felt unable to trust people like before, I felt worthless, and unworthy of being loved, even by myself. It was the beginning of my own personal hell: I was alone with myself and my demons, I felt guilty, I hated myself, and I closed myself off even more. It was a downward spiral. Even though I still had my childhood best friend, I felt empty, and not worthy of her friendship because I was depressed, even around her.
Then college started, and I moved far from home with my brother. I met people through him, but he left a year later. Which brings us to today: I've met people, but I don't feel good around them. I've gotten into several arguments with them and it brought back bad memories. I realized that I never really kept my head above water. I'm still the same girl: incredibly introverted, sad and gloomy, incapable of making friends, and feeling guilty just for existing.
So please know that you aren't alone. At least we are two lonely souls. But I want to believe that we will get better, that we will grow, and that we will find precious people along our path. But the journey is about healing. I think I need to make peace with myself. Because above all, I am the one I have to live with, and I need to learn to accept myself.
So maybe you too will find your answers one day, even if they are hard to find.
Ur like the most nonchalant person I've ever seen in the best way possible. Like I've always wanted to be like that. That was a very entertaining read and I hope u meet more friends who aren't homophobic and like yaoi. I'm in the same boat cuz most of my friends don't read yaoi and they don't like yaoi. U aren't a chud, like ur just a person living their life and that's rlly tuff. Thanks 4 sharing this!!
Omg that was genuinely so poetic and beautiful. I'm glad to know others find this relatable and I hope u get better too. Ik u can do it and u aren't stupid or anything. My friend group now are made up of rlly smart ppl, they're all in special classes and I'm just in regulars, and they get the highest grades for everything. So sometimes I feel a little dumb. I'm glad someone else has that same story cuz I don't feel so alone. Reading this literally made me so happy and giggly and like that nice tingly feeling. Ik u can find people who will accept u for who u are and I am rooting for you! Heading is a long process, a very long one. But we can do it together! Thank u so much for sharing this, I loved listening to u. Even if I don't know u, I feel connected to u through experiences, so I hope u succeed in the future! U can do this!
You'll get there one day when you go through the journey of realizing that other people's problems aren't your own and that other people's lives are theirs to live. I struggled a back then too with friendships so this is almost me speaking through the exhaustion of going through a lot of friend groups that make you feel out of the loop. You sound like a supportive person. I hope you find people who support you just as much <33
Thank u sm again, this was rlly a big help, even if it doesn't seem like it. I hope I'll find friends suited for me, and I hope u will also find friends suited for u. Rn I rlly do love my friends, but I know one day we'll all split up. I wish u good luck in the present and future!
Recently I had this friend online, and well they were chill and ok. We talked, but I made a huge mistake. I did something that was honestly super mean, and I disregarded their feelings and privacy cuz I thought it was funny. They found out about it and confronted me and I apologized and hastily got rid of what I did. I honestly don't know why I did that. It's just, what they said was actually really funny but I mocked them and made fun of them while never telling them. And I feel very sorry about it. Like incredibly sorry. I feel immense guilt. I apologized a lot, and they told me they posted a video about it and tagged me. I honestly felt bad, but I don't mind because I knew I deserved it and I want the other person to express how they feel about it in their own way to let off steam. I saw the video, and the other person was really upset. They said they felt like they could never open up to a person after that and are afraid of meeting new people. I don't want people to ever feel that way, so I also mentioned that they shouldn't let people like me get in the way of having genuine relationships. I totally understand I'm in the wrong, but I want to genuinely fix this. They said they are now ok with being friends again, and I accepted, but honestly I kinda wished they rejected me because I don't know if I could talk to them again. I'd just feel incredibly bad. The thing is, I sometimes had rude thoughts about them, because we never exactly matched the same frequency, but I never thought of them as incredibly annoying so I was ok with texting them. But I let my indifference towards them loose my empathy. How do I get rid of this immense feeling of guilt? I know I apologized a bunch and they accepted it, but I still feel absolutely terrible for what I did to them. It's 3am right now and I don't want to sleep because I know I'll just end up thinking about it and make myself feel even more guilty. Do you guys know any excersise or other therapies to treat this? Sorry if this was boring, I needed to get this off my chest. Pls give advice, or not, it's ur life
If i was you, i would ask what your friend meant with “ok” to talk to you again. If they were that offended by what you did and they just forget you that sounds a little.. to fast. Not saying that you shouldn’t be friends again but what you’re feeling now is probably because you didn’t get a proper explanation if that makes sense?
Hmm that does make sense. Like what happened was that I apologized again and they said "we can be friends again" and I think ur right about the explaination. I'd want to know why they would want to talk to me again even after I did all of that, but idk if I have the courage to ask because ik they will be pissed. They were alr making many remarks about it afterwards, so I think I'm still on thin ice I'll wait and see. I don't think they forgot about what I did cuz they still brought it up after that (I don't exactly mind because I just want them to let out a little steam and get compensation ykwim?) thank u so much for the comment cuz it genuinely made me feel a lot better to see people care.
If they still brought it up then they are not over it and holding a “grudge”.. now I dont know exactly what you said to them but there is a solution to everything. You just need to talk it out and they should explain and decide what they want and if they actually can continue without holding a grudge towards you. But then again you mentioned that you have some rude thoughts about them ? That tells me that maybe you don’t match as friends at all and that’s okay. Better to talk it out and decide how you want to continue together. Since I don't know you guys its really up to you and cant say that you should stay or leave but how it sounds now, that thing that happened right now was kinda the “last straw” if you know what i mean, and maybe that is a sign? (Especially if similar things happened before between you two) if it’s the first time and you like each other as friends, then give it a chance.
Ok thank u so much. Though everything happened just yesterday actually, idk if they can let go of their grudge just yet. I'll try to be more open about my feelings with them and actually talk about dislikes and feelings cuz I'm the type of person to block without telling someone why This was the first time it has happened, we've only really been friends for a month. I me personally, I don't know why they really care so much about me, our whole friendship is online anyways. But I mean, that's just my opinion about it. Thank u so much for the advice again cuz I was rlly muddled and confused and I have these little panic attacks whenever I don't know what to do. U rlly helped me out here
No problem. Glad to help.
I have separation anxiety and I can't get over this story can sm1 pls reccomend me smth like it to fill the void in my heart after finishing. I especially like how intimate some scenes were. Like all the caressing. And I love the artstyle. Idc if it has a happy or sad ending too. Like the ending was what killed me, but at the same time I like endings like that. Haha pls no rape as well. Not a big fan for obvious reasons. Also I like it when both of them are just insane. Ok u don't need to give recs, but pls do. Like or dislike, or simply scroll. I still wish u have a nice day
lol I get that feeling when I also finished Bait, i had a void to fill but unfortunately i dont think any other story could be like it since each has their own combined variables yk that makes them unique but still, give these a try~
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/a_night_to_remember/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/solo_for_two_mature/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_perfect_relationship/
Goodluck in your search !
THANK U SM FOR ALL RHE RECS I LOVE UUUU. Bait is truly a one of a kind story, and I hope the author releases more stories