i attempted a year ago, my parents were totally unsupportive and stated that i might stab someone with the knife i used to try and kms?? anyway, i ran away from home and went to my hg's house. that day was the worst and best day of my life, it was her birthday and we went out and did fun things, her mom saw the scar on my wrist and just told me ''i...... 1 reply
Definitely I used to want to commit ASAP but after a couple failed attempts and as I got older I thought about how it would be such a waste for me to die when so much money into my clothing and food has been spent on me to raise me.
Looking back it wasn't exactly a good reason to stay alive as I was basically guilt tripping myself to do so but it ...... reply
I made multiple different attempts at different points in my life. After each I remember just there always being something I could cling to as justification, for many years that was my cat.
Before I knew it I had passed the age I never thought I'd live through. I met someone. I started a career. I started a life made by ME.
It's not sunshine all ...... reply
Yes! Especially after I started therapy. Of course, I had some relapses, but the secret is not to give up trying to improve. One of the biggest reasons why I had these thoughts is because I have a very, let's say, messy family, I won't go into too much detail. And to make matters worse, I was a typical good daughter, but even so, I was always criti...... reply
I was 16 when I made my first serious attempt. Before that i had try to do it but was honestly too scared to do so. Then something big happened in my life that made me do it. I remember after i opened my eyes, the only person i saw was my father, staring at me, crying. That was the first time I had seen him cry. He hugged me and made me promise to ...... 1 reply
ive been struggling with depression since i was around 7-8 years old, and i swore up and down that i would die before i turned 18. Back to back id have attempted to end it just to end up in the hospital again. Therapist after therapist trying to undo damage caused by my environment.
one day i was sitting outside after having a particularly shit d...... 2 reply
I had sort of an existential crisis for a while. I had this thought like "damn, If I was dead right now, I wouldnt be able to taste this food, or listen to this song, or smile with friends at this moment, or read this book." stuff like that, all throughout the day, I learned to appreciate everyday, mundane things. It isnt a permanent solution becau...... reply
My responsibilities towards my family is what’s keeping me alive.
Ever since the passing of my brother I’m always ready to die at any given point of my life. But my responsibility is holding me back.
Whatever it is , no matter how small or trivial. As long as it’s keeping you alive, do it. I hope you keep winning against yourself. 1 reply
a couple of weeks after my attempt I started to accept a lot of my self-indulgences, like eating more sugar than I should, or reading stupid ass shit. I used to feel like a failure when doing these things but now I just do them because I realize that it's keeping me alive.
