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So I'm planning write either fanfiction or original

Here the thing I'm never finished a full on page as full book before only comment. I don't have money either for beta readers, and I suck searching topic, like A03 author has full on Wikipedia information even not found in wiki, and I'm don't keep up with schedule (even though I have full on free time lol)
Also I used to be good in English now I suck at it

So get any tips?

I'm not looking for recs just want to be an inconvenience by complaining about something small but is a big deal to me, for some reason... :/ also not saying uke protagonist is bad. Does anybody else share my grievances? :((

Just say I volunteer, and someone else will go through ur lists, if they end up finding titles that matches the person's taste in ur lists, the person gotta reply and say so, and you two need to moot each other up or somethin

I saw ppl asking on how to find moots and like idk this feels like the perfect way to do so cus ur finding someone who matches ur taste

Also forums lowk been dry asf so this looks fun, tho do not participate if ur not willing to moot up/be mooted yk

You guys TT^TT I am dying you guys TT^TT I have this research paper that I need to submit in like 9 days. And here I'm still working on the survey part of it. In the holy name of piracy, please fill it up TT^TT
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I’m learning to play forever together by co shu nie on bass guitar

It seems most reader's of this story have finally grown up so people finally understand that the 17 year old run away slave isn't the big homewrecker villain that deserved to die. But a lot of people under the story still very much excuse that classist bs and honestly I'd go as far as to say they uphold rape culture with the shit they truly believe in, they truly think a run away slave could have just said no to the fucking emperor??? They actually piss me off so badly and i truly wish the author never wrote this bullshit, the only good thing to come out of the story is Rashta herself. Navier is as interesting as white bread, her war criminal bf should die actually like he is on this big ass moral ground when he himself is a fucking homewrecker, shovieshu or whatever is the most boring antagonist on this earth and the rest of the supporting cast is SHIIT i wish Rashta was actually as bad as the story makes her out to be, she should have killed all of them. Bring socialism to the empire comrade Rashta

So I'm 18 and I'm in middle of my finals and I didn't have time to clean my period underwear...not intentional, so mom once again was in the mood was an argument and she started speaking about this matter INFRONT of my 15 year old brother and so I started to lash out and misbehave and them my mom threw hot burning tea on me not to mention I am kinda used to this now my dad also hurts me if I don't listen emotionally and physically both like he even told me once that if I was a porn star no would buy me still (though I was wrong that time) but that made me completely hate him and get nightmares of him assaulting me not to mention I'm Muslim too, and I'm reaching my breaking point very quickly since this is not normal for Muslims, I am now so used to this but when they do all that they expect me to apologize to them (but after painful begging and them accepting my sorry they act normal like nothing happened don't get me wrong I have everything a 18 yo wants I have a ps5 2 tabs everything but I never feel happy since I always have to go through this again I was also once forced to stay on the cold marvel floor of my bathroom in extreme winters because I misbehaved to mom and she video called my dad (he works abroad and I was having a trauma response) that I was misbehaving and I was almost kicked out and this happened because I was caught playing a online game (royale high) ) just to put it out there I was also almost diagnosed with c PTSD but my parents took me out ,so tell me what the hell should I do I'm not allowed to have a phone ,no internet for friends,a camera in my room like what do I do.

Genuinely I haven't meet anyone irl that know matt Maltese liek??? THEY'RE MISSING OUT

Songs you play when you masterbate/have sex?

The way readers find him likable and innocent, and therefore excuse the fact that he's one of the reasons the children turned out the way they did... WHAT INNOCENT? LMAO.

I recognize that he's a victim too, just like Ashley because of his grandpa, but being a victim doesn't excuse their actions or decisions.

Like, girl, he knows Ashley doesn't want kids. He knows how batshit Ashley is. Ashley himself literally said he didn't want children because they might end up just as batshit as him bec genetics bruh. I KNOW readers also say it's because he can't smell pheromones, so he can't fully comprehend how dangerous Ashley or their children are, but GIRLYPOPS HE HAVE FUNCTIONAL EYES.
And don't even get me started when he helped Dane in the hospital (Desire me if you can)and went all savior mode like "Oh, poor soul. He protected the innocent." wipes tear "Ashpooks, let me use my pheromones to help him uwu."

BOY. IMMA—OOOOOMFG...

Anyway, despite all the caps and everything I just said, this frustration will pass in like seconds. LMAO. Bye, that's all.

I was ranting about some1 love bombing and I lowkey think it's poetic or I'm just super sleep deprived

"We used to throw the word "I love you" like we do not know the weight of it, but now after him, I've learned to not say "I love you" without knowing myself fully that I'm willing to carry the weight of my words. "

Ugh, lowkey made my heart ache

Idk, for some reason I'm having trouble sleeping like, back then like 9th grade and 10th grade I always get sleep paralysis and stuff but I can sleep early. But rn, my summer is about to end and my sleeping schedule became shit, idk what happened, I used to sleep in afternoon and sleep early in nights, so I'm confused like. I cannot sleep in afternoon and also night, I start sleeping in around 3am, am I going crazy cuz one time finally sleep around 9pm and woke up at exactly 3am, I was confused but I kept hearing voices like, someone or something is like "pst pst" I got scared but decided to uhm "pst pst" back, ohh wait, this wasn't actually one time. It happened way back almost before my 8th grade ended and then my sleep paralysis starts anyways DO YOU GUYS HAVE SOME TRICKS TO SLEEP FASTER OR METHODS BECAUSE IM LOSING SLEEP AND MY SCHOOL IS STARTING ON MONDAY

I hope this doesn't get taken down because this site is kind of a reddit for me.

Anyways, I came across this topic about hypersexuality and I have a somewhat similar experience. But i don't wanna share it there coz that's their thing not mine.

To be honest, as I am currently in the path of psychology, I don't wanna say I am hypersexual without proper diagnosis (tho it's not really considered as a condition or what), but I'm experiencing similar.

Just for the context, i have this 'you-know-what' trauma that recurred to me this year. Like I completely forgot about it coz it happened when I was like 6 or 7. I always remember it (not vividly) but i chose to ignore it because I'm not expressive with my family and i would just like to think of it as something that is not a big deal. After all, I've been living my life not caring about it. However, as i keep studying psychology, I realized that it's actually a big big deal. I only realized it now that I'm an adult. Also just realized that I'm actually avoiding it.

However, because of what happened to me when i was young, I've been very sexual (tho the only thing i do is rubbing, still a virgin) growing up. Like literally everyday, then I'm gonna stop for like weeks or months then do it again.

I'm actually in a somewhat long relationship. At first, doing things with them is fine, pleasurable. We haven't done the deed but we've crossed bases now. Anyways, after having some realization with my trauma, I realized that I can't imagine myself having sex with anyone else. Even to the point that I'm fine dying as a virgin (i know overreacting but). I feel like pleasuring myself is already fine. I don't need anything else. Suddenly, I'm just disgusted with the thought of it.

I've always been a manhater, but because of my trauma, it becomes worse. I love my lover. They are kind, love me so much, and never made me feel like I'm less or they have bad intentions to me. It's just a me problem.

I love fiction dih, but not so for real dih.

Disclaimer: I know therapy is the solution but my family is very traditional and not open with that idea. Just wanna ask your thoughts.

Also this is my personal experience and I'm not encouraging anyone who have similar trauma to not make a big deal out of it.

Sorry for my english as i am not native. Thank you very much. (づ￣ ³￣)づ

Hello, this is my very first time doing this question thingy after a few years of using this site.. So I'm not quite sure if I'm doing this right.. ՞߹ - ߹՞

Anyway, I would like to rant about something and would like some advice or answers (?) huhu!.. I hope this doesn't get taken down or get negative reactions..

I am currently suffering from extreme headache and cold as I'm typing this, so consider this as like, being honest asf when drunk, so I don't know if I'll be speaking well lol.

Oks, so, I'm having this shower thought or sumt whatever u call it.. I'm a very hypersexual virgin, so I have little to no experience w this. (I had online rs's, and yes, I would go far w "video calling" and do stuff, but that's it)

I'm wondering, everytime I do self-pleasure, (as I said, im hypersexual, I can't help it) I always need material right? So I js go on here or other sites to find one, and mid "pleasure", I would always think abt having THE stuff done to me as well. I imagine stuff VERY vividly, so I get off liek, easily lol. And yes, I fantasize those A LOT, even after pleasure moment..

But lately, after doing "those", Ive been having post nut-clarity (m a girl, but I do feel ts), not about reality, but the Ick of thinking abt doing it with someone..

I like this guy, and we joke around being freaky. I've always been a freaky person, and I won't deny that. But I influenced the guy lowk, and I think he likes me since he's willing to go far to joke w me abt ts.. And back then, I wouldn't mind. But nowadays, I js.. Get the Ick when being freaky w him. I don't mind, but I genuinely don't wanna be freaky anymore, like w him. Even with other friends in general that im close with (like, topics we relate and shit), I js wanna keep the freakiness to myself. And lowkey, Im loosing interest. Not because of the freakiness, but because of how I'm not in the mood to focus on personal relationships and such.

I had an ex and after that ex, I had a hookup thinking we could be together, yes, but most of it were js abt lust, and I regret calling those "love" when most of it were js us fucking around. (online btw, I hate to admit)

I think it was because of my hypersexuality, and wanting someone to relieve it w me, I js realized it b4 that it was disgusting, and I regret every single bit of it.

Continuing on, I used to always think abt stuff being done to me, but nowadays, I js.. Only think abt it mid pleasure, because ofc, it increases my libido or sumt. But after doing such, I legit have the Ick of thinking abt it w someone, or even with the person I like. I suddenly js dont like the action done towards me.

I like seeing people getting it on, aka voyeurism (right..?), but as I said, I don't want it done to me. I used to fantasize abt it because of my hypersexuality, but I js prefer looking at people doing it, and I feel like.. Toys would be better than actual humans.

Idk whats wrong w me lol, I don't have money or time to fix my hypersexuality (I don't have trauma, I was js exposed at a rlly young age), so I js cope by doing pleasure lmaoo..

Anyway, I js wonder, why am I suddenly getting disgusted when it comes to being freaky w people or thinking abt it having done to me, but I literally get off to people doing it? Ik its voyeurism, but ik there's more to that. I used to be a hopeless romantic, yet thinking abt being w someone makes me.. Idk, off? I don't want to be in an rs anymore, aka I'm being cupioromantic I guess..

But why? Why did my feelings suddenly change? The guys I like is better than my exes, yet when he tries to flirt or be freaky like me, I get icked? I used to be head over heels for him, get off to his voice (ehem.. Yes..), but not anymore. I'm loosing interest on him. And I'm fine with fangirling as a fujoshi and have butterflies when reading romance, but I don't desire for such to happen to me. I'm contemplating sm about my mixed feelings and thoughts that I'm feeling nauseous as I'm typing now.

I used to like being in a relationship, but suddenly turn to not liking being in one. I just want friendship, maybe platonic at most? Idk anymore. I'm js, my head is overthinking and overwhelmed by these unnecessary thoughts.

I'm struggling with hypersexuality, yet I don't want anyone to help me with it, like a lover or a hookup or someone I like idk????!! I genuinely js want toys, like, I feel like toys would help me and I would be completely fine with those and be happy w my life. I really don't know anymore. I'm turning 18 next year (I hope my age doesn't shock anyone), so I want to be able to save for toys to be able to cope with my hypersexuality and the shit I'm struggling with.

Sorry for the rant, I'm not in my right mind as I am typing this, so I will defo have second hand embarrassment when my head is clear.. Also, I won't read all of this and js post this since my head is rlly painful and I feel sick still, so I'm sorry if whatever I said is confusing. I just wanna rant.. ಥ_ಥ

If anyon3 has answers or advice, pls do tell! I don't mind any brutal honesty, or criticism, or anything, I'm fine witht anything! Thank you for reading this rant, if anyone has questions, u can ask, i'll do my best to answer :) (I feel so bad for my mom for havinf a daughter like me.. Lol.)

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Okay, so boom. I reach out to this super cute guy in my grade. I graduated a full year ahead of my class, so I'm going to college in the fall in a different town. I made this super clear to him, and that I was just wanting to talk/be friends. But I lowkee kinda put myself in the thought process that things could work out with him. He apparently confessed to me on a call when I fell asleep, and that honestly ticked me off when he told me over messages.
Then, not even 4 days later, he makes a joke calling me a slut and some other things, but I play it off as a joke because we're about to go on a date the following day. The date went well, but he just kept on giving me the ick. I made it very clear to him that I don't like being called terms that put me down as a woman, and he laughed it off. So I ghosted him.
He's been messaging me every fucking hour for the last 4-5 days. I haven't been on any of my social apps because I'm too much of a wimp to block him on everything, because that just means he could bother me with alt accounts if he were desperate enough. (I've been stalked by 2 guys, and would prefer not to have it happen again.)
There's more to the story, but I won't tell unless someone wants to be nosy

Am I an asshole for ghosting him like this?

i just need a bunch of boob sucking and nipple play, man or woman don't care just need boobs in my face rn. i don't even want the penetration shit just boobs. every single panel i need groping and nipple play

sharing this here in hopes that someone could also resonate but does anyone else find it difficult to date girls… like im bisexual and im more sexually attracted to women (specifically femmes) but for some reason they just don’t find me appealing i guess i’ve only entertained men just bc they’re there but i want a gf so bad it’s killing me