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Just why does every damn yandere have to be so hot?? I don’t think I’ve ever seen an ugly yandere. Like, why are they always so attractive when their personality is completely psycho? I want a reason to hate them, but I just can’t.

It does say they’re kind and loving at first before they turn into obsessive, possessive, dangerous psychos, but nowhere does it say they’re supposed to look like freaking models. I did Not sign up for that.

I consider myself not the ordinary, I don't really see myself in mainstream spaces with the usual folks. I always see trends, new/ trending products and expensive items as a trap for ppl to consume and feed capitalism. My biggest worry is that I'm not very knowledgable with politics but I do very much hate our government.. I don't do big essays about the government, There's absolutely nothing I have done that is impactful for this generation that speaks out about our government, I can't attend protests (for my safety and mostly travel expenses) but I still stand for what they're protesting for.

It feels like I'm just folowing like a sheep because sometimes I just follow what my college classmates are doing when it comes to school work bcs I have no idea what we should be doing bcs our profs suck and I'm hk going through things and sometimes lazy so I dont take responsibility for organizations or anything TT and tbh college is a scam, it isn't for me and it's just a tactic made by the government but I still go to it anyway so I don't worry my family so I'm not really academically inclined.

My high-school classmates actually made me open minded that people can be different, they also made me more aware of our corrupted government.

I've also picked up projects like my diy flared jeans and rediscovered the fun of thrifting, I also do art and etc. But I don't smoke, go to parties, have dyed hair or facial peircings that kind of stuff but I want to go out and have fun but I'm kind of a shut in tbh and bcs I don't do any of those it feels like I can't be one of them.

Its like I'm too normal for the alt community but too weird for the non-alts.

Fashion wise, I want to dress different and want to embrace the feeling of being different instead of feeling ashamed of it (sometimes its hard), one time my sister called me alt but I didn't fully embrace it because what if I'm actually just a poser?

The reason why I changed is not from alt trends, I just saw my classmates dressing up and that's when I realized that's what I wanted to do and ever since then I just.. changed.

I went from repeated clothes, wearing the same white shorts for years, no accessories, embracing my "tomboy" nature, no make up into someone with a packed closet, dark eyeshadows, smudged smokey eye, diy painted shirts and pants and tbh I'm starting to embrace and treasure my interests more than ever.

I don't want to just say "I'm alt" because it feels like I'm a poser, but I can't help but see that my preferences and tastes aren't the ordinary and that I'm different.

Maybe being true "alt" is embracing that you're not the ordinary, and not just saying you're alt to brag about it/to look cool.

(I also took a test asking if I'm a poser and the results said I'm somewhat a Poser )

Help a poor soul out please. I would def prefer more yaoi recs but ya'll have been stingy with giving me recs recently. But this is super serious. I really need more or I'll burst