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Why does everyone want to die? No, that’s not it. Nobody actually wants to die. What they want is for the pain to stop, and somewhere along the way, “I want the pain to stop” got twisted into “I want to die.” Those aren’t the same thing. Not even close.

I’ve watched so many people, young people especially, throw those words around like they weigh nothing. Like saying “I want to die” is just another way of saying “I’m tired” or “this sucks.” It’s not a light sentence. It’s not a punchline. Words like that land on people. They spread. And when someone hears it enough times, said carelessly enough times, it stops sounding like a cry for help and starts sounding like an option.

And then there are the ones who go further, who tell people to just do it, like life is something you can return once you’re bored of it. Like intolerable is the same as impossible. It’s not. Some things in life are genuinely brutal. Nobody’s denying that. But brutal isn’t the whole story, there are still things that make it bearable. A song. A person. A morning that doesn’t feel as heavy as the one before. You don’t need a grand reason to keep going. Sometimes “I’ll see what tomorrow looks like” is reason enough.

When you’re young, your brain lies to you. It tells you this feeling is permanent, that this version of unbearable is forever. It’s not. Life can feel like drowning, like you can’t breathe, like you’ve stopped being a person and become just a mess of emotion. But that IS being human. That’s the deal. Nobody gets to skip the hard parts and keep the rest.

So, do you need a reason to live? No. You don’t need a five year plan or a purpose statement. Life is actually more interesting without one. It’s consciousness. the fact that you’re aware, that you get to feel and think and connect to something outside yourself. That awareness is the whole point. As long as you’re conscious, there’s something left to lose, and something left to gain.

The past is just a memory now. The future hasn’t happened yet, it’s still imaginary, still yours to shape. So keep imagining it. Work toward it. Look at your life from an angle you haven’t tried yet. It’s beautiful if you let it be.

So I’ll ask again, but for real this time, why does anyone think giving up is the answer? It isn’t. It never was. The only way to die painlessly is to wait for your time to come and live life without regrets.

Yup, as the title says, I really suck at organizing my stuff in general, and now I’m stuck trying to organize my manga list.

I have some manga and manhwa that were either taken down or never completed, but I read them up to the last available chapter before they disappeared.

So My question is: should I mark them as Read, or leave them in Want to Read? Or should I put them in a different category?

I know it’s probably not a big deal, but I’ve been overthinking it, and it’s honestly stressing me out.

How do you all organize yours?

Any advice is appreciated!

Just found out one of my profs used to and now I'm very curious to see how many of you started reading all the way back then